The past 36 days have been heartbreaking.... July 2, 2011 my wife and I were married..Before the marriage there was an affair on her part for 15 months with my best friend..Another lady he was cheating on his wife with at the same time informed me of the situation. I confronted my then fiance and the denial and lies started..That was Feb. 25, 2010....The lies have continued until this day. April 20, 2012 we seperated after confronting her about some pictures she had made for my birthday 2010..I gave her several chances to be honest and even mentioned that if she were honest and admitted to the issue, then we would act like it never happened..The next 30 minutes was lie after lie until she "kinds-of" stated somewhat of the truth.. I left the house that evening, and since that time we have not spoken a word.. We go to the same ward, both practice choir, and sit just 2 feet away in sacarament, but without contact, she seems miles away.. We have had ALOT of issues in our courtship before we married last year..We started dating Dec. 2008....She is a VERY insecure person, and the things she has done has led to alot of heartache for her family and mine.. Thru some of our trials, she has met alot of men on the internet..She has confirmed sending nude pictures to 17 different men, and talking to 52 seperate men.. This seperation is taking its toll on me..My family never understood why I married her after so many sinful things..I explained over and over that I forgave her and wanted to believe her when she would breakdown and promise to change. From June 2010 to June 2011 she sought help from a phycologist..I went to several visits, tho not all because I live in the midwest, and her at the time in Utah..The last of those visits her counselor told me these wirds "Michelle will never change. You have 2 options..You need to either walk out my door and tell her you never want to see her again, or be prepared to be hurt by her forever." We married 30 days later after me wanting so bad to believe her sorrowful pleas that che would change... I am struggling with so many issues..Just today I found out she started talking to my friends that she had the affair with..That cut deep...Now im left with asking when forgiveness needs to stop. I do pray daily for her..She is holding satans hand and appears to enjoy the ride, while those in her path are left crushed.

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