Life is starting to put itself back together again. It is slowly starting to make sense again, and I am slowly starting to be able to trust again.

It is funny that we all go through life in a manner that seems to make all the sense in the world, but then, something happens to make your whole world come crashing down on top of you. When this happened, I know that I had to make one of two choices....... just lay down and let my world pass me by, or get up and take control and fight for what I knew was mine!

I have always believed, ever since I was a little boy, that in life, you sometimes fall. And it really does not matter how many times you fall and get back up again....... what matters is that you GET BACK UP AGAIN!

It has been very hard to let myself trust people again the past few months. Which actually seems very strange to me since I used to do things to destroy the trust that people had in me. But now I see it from the other side, someone destroyed the trust that I had in them, and it has been very hard to let myself be trusting again. But I think that I am finally starting to come around. This person has shown me time and time again that they are truely sorry for what happened, and have shown me that I am able to instill my trust in them again. Mind you, everything is not back to normal yet...... I still have my bad days where everything that happened comes crashing in on my mind again, but for the most part, most of my days I don't even think about it. I still think that it will be quite some time before EVERYTHING is back to normal again, but this is a BIG start.

I guess the old saying is true..... "Start with baby steps and work your way up to running"

On another note........

Pixie and I are going to have a Baby Boy around Thanksgiving time!!!!!! (For those of you who did not already know)

Well actually, PIXIE is going to have the baby, I just get to do the normal GUY-THING, and watch in amazement as this new little life comes into and blesses our lives!!

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