I wrote in my journal yesterday. Ill copy that here.

I noticed a family geneology book[its more of a history] sitting out. I went through it and read a bit of it. It's interesting to ""get to know" your own ancestors. The stories of their lives and their stuggles and triumphs. Most of it seems that most of the things fell into place and there wasn't much oppossition. Those parts probably arn.t recorded as much and all we get are the results. We are all making our own stories. We cant' see the end because we haven't written it yet. Let's make it a good ending.

Most of my thoughts surrounding this is pretty much about perspective. We in our right now lives worry how things will be and most of us im sure think something like "Why couldnt I have lived back then when things were simpler?" The truth is its just as hard..just more distractions. That said I love stories. Be it in a book or a movie. It's exciting to see the plot progress and how things end and usually think how good of an ending it was/it ended the way you wanted. We need to spend more time being excited about our story. Kind of hard to do being the main character and the plot progresses ever so painfully slow. Why can't it just be over with!??! Aside from fiction even true stories are interesting in that all of that has happened already. In reading that book I learned my that my grandma never expected to get married (she was 25 only gettting older+no love interest?). In that one sentence there is most likely so much more agony and stress over something that one hopes for. But thats when my grandpa came and swept her off her feet(not really. she was resistant at first). They ended up getting married, had a family, got old, so-on-and-so-forth. From a third person perspective things seem to just work out. In first person, however, there must have been a lot more involved that I dont understand. For me I must be in the middle of a bad chapter. Im a horrible author. Im not good at writing my own life. But theres where the Lord comes in. Hes a speed reader you know. He has read everyones story several times, even before the books are finished. And he has his influence to meld stories together and weave them in and out. Im not good but I can get better. I just dont like the lurking feeling that Ill mess my story up.

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