So i took a few months away to try and get a few things straight in my head.

When i left the site i was tired of a lot of the petty things going on  with the people on the site.  Every day at work i get called up to deal with people who want to talk to a manager.  Almost every time i get to the person they are fuming over the fact that they have been told that they have to follow the rules.  Simple everyday things, things we would honestly punish our children for not following, and yet these grown adults throw worse tantrums than most toddlers and can't understand why no one takes them seriously.  That's kinda what i saw going on here, rules laid out, people not likeing it and doing nothing but complaining.  I came here to get away from things like that, and while i found other troubles this got to be a lil much.

Though that wasn't really the only reason I left.  Just before i left i got hurt pretty bad.  I can admit it's my own fault.   When do you just give up on a person.  When do you start  to admit that it's not a surprise.  I had hope, if not for the feelings that once might have been, but for the quality of the person i cared for.  Sadly bit by bit i've had to accept disaapointment, I've learned that what i saw and thought was there was never really anything more than what i hoped this person could be because i saw the potential.

So why did i come back?  I miss my friends.  The person who hurt me has been more and more on my mind and though i know nothing will really ever ease the hurt at least i can know she's doing ok.  Also sadly this site is really my only connection to people.  I've kinda blocked out the rest of my life in favor of work so i was growing a bit more reclusive.  So i found that it would be a good idea to open up a social network again.

A lot more to say, a lot more on my mind that i just can't say or even touch on.  Just needed to be back around friends for the time being....even if it reopens some wounds.

Good to be back.......i think

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