Some times I feel so alone, I feel like the world is coming down on me and I don't have any one I can count on to be there for me. It really hurts.

I guess I got really caught up in feeling sorry for my self and lonely, that I lost track of who I was. There is a scriputer in Matt 5:14-16, (this was the first scripture mastery that I learned in Semonary) that says “You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden; nor does man light a candle and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick, and it giveth light unto all who are in the house. Let your light so shine before men that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.". I had a final that I was freaking out about, among other things, and as I paced my room I blurted out of the blue "I need God in here". I've said my prayers, attended my church classes, took the sacrament, so on and so forth, but I had literally blocked the Holy Ghost from entering my heart. He wasn't there, I had shut him out thinking I knew what I was doing. And admitting all of this to myself I felt him return to me, I instantly rush to my CD player and started up "Daughter of a King". The Lord filled my room, I heard him everywhere, within every corner. He held my hand as a studied and as I went through my trials for the day. But his mercy and love wasn't through with the teaching. My little sister came knocking later (like a little missionary), she and my parents felt I had been studying too long and that I needed a brake. My little sis invited me to go swimming with her, and she wasn't going to hop in the pool till I did. We had a wonderful afternoon where she showed me all she knew how to do. I understood then what it ment to be a little child, to be a real light. My candle was fading, and as it reached it's last portion of flame it was instantly filled again, I never want it to get that low again. Never ever will I let things like school and stress pull me away from the Lord. We are ment to take on troubles so that we can draw closer to him, not to pull away like some people do. My little sis goes through terrible problems, yet her light still shines like the sun, I love her for that.

We all go through terrible trials, some that seem unbareable, and we at times think we know what were doing, and well it may appear that way, the Lord sees all, he knows all, he knows every single one of us and what we need. Knowing this brothers and sisters, we should all come to the Lord everyday, no matter what (loneliness, anger, fear,). Through him our candles will be made stronger and they will shine unto all the earth with a heat and light that makes the sun look low. We will learn to love and hope, to be kind to our enemies. We will not know idleness, or hate, we will know true serenity. It's like growing wings and soaring, we will never come down if we turn all ourself to him.

How Bright is your Candle?

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