I'm in an odd place with the church right now. Before my second daughter was born, I was very active in the church. But lately I'm not sure what I believe.

During the whole pregnancy with my second child, I was told in blessings that I wouldn't have to have another c-section. I completely believed. Even walking into the hospital, I fully believed that something would happen that would make it so I didn't have to have a c-section. But it didn't. That shook my faith.I didn't understand why I would be promised something that wouldn't happen. And then it seems like the times in my life when I was the strongest in the church have been the hardest. I thought it was supposed to be that if you're living the gospel, things are better... not worse. I haven't been to church in quite some time, and I don't think I'm worse off because of it. I'm not saying that I'll never go back to church, but at this point in my life, I don't see it happening soon.

Furthermore, I have always felt that if someone is happy with their religion, then good for them. I don't like how pushy most mormons are about converting people. And I don't agree with having as many children as you can pop out, which seems to be another mormon culture type thing. I dunno. I don't really have any doctrinal arguments against the church, I just don't really know how I feel about it.

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