A heart that is broken and confuse. A heart that is not sure what to feel. I wish all this emotions can be put in place that I could put in order my feelings, but I am not even sure how I feel. I know how painfull this last six years has been and I know to leave was a good desicion, is better to leave a relationship were there is nothing more than hurt, pain, disapoiment. But as the memories come back to you of all you when thru, anger fill your heart, hurt over power you. to clearly see the things you did not see before, gives you a feeling of hopeless. To know how you were play and to know they practically saw you and laught at you in your face, that they were "boy, how stupid she is that does not even imagine what is going on" makes you feel like a fool.
I could keep on and on, and I will never see an ending. I wishI had someone fisically with me that can give me a hug, that could erase the scar I have. I wish I could have the chance of being at least haft the person I was , But the more I think about it the more hurt and pain I feel.
JerseyMom