So I've been unemployed for a year now. Well, it's actually been 14 months. Ugh. I can't believe it's been that long. I've interviewed tons of times for jobs that I'm qualified for but there's always something that doesn't feel right and I know it and worse, I know they know it so I never get an offer. I've made it to the top three quite a few times and for some really large companies, so that's made me feel good. Just not the top 1.
I've been to the temple and prayed my guts and heart out about it. I've been told that I was supposed to work from home with my own business so, even though I've never wanted to do this, I started my own company. But my heart's not been in it because, as I said, I've never wanted to do it. I know a lot of people would love the opportunity to do that, especially when the company requires no investment to start up because it's all something that can be done online and you're the only equipment that's needed, but yeah. Very little interest. I was interested when the money came in, that was awesome. Saw some of the biggest paychecks I'd ever received, but I missed being in an office and having people around me. I'm a people person.
Well, when you're not really interested in what you're doing, it's easy to let it slide when there's the slightest opposition to it and when I got sick in July, I let the business slide. So now I'm without clients, without a job, without money, and still have that inspiration that I should stay at home and work for myself. Ugh. What's really annoying is that I keep interviewing for these AWESOME job opportunities! I would love to have some of these and at least one or two of them pay more than I thought I'd ever make when I graduated from college. But, guess that's not what's in it for me. So, yeah. Here I sit wondering how to get my business kick started again and trying to really want it because the Lord keeps wanting me to want it. *sigh* At least I know he loves me and answers my prayers. :) I guess those are two good things I've learned from all this. And I've grown an awful lot.