I have a study guide to the Book of Mormon that I have been reading since summer. I usually read a chapter in the Book of Mormon and then read that same chapter in the study guide with all the extra notes and information in the study guide.
I read 2 Nephi chapter 4 and was blown away. I found the scriptures in that chapter to be absolutely beautiful. I then read about it in my study guide. The study guide says verses 16 to 35 is known as the Psalm of Nephi. The study guide also says the Psalm of Nephi is not only one of the most beautiful pieces of scripture ever written but also, and unfortunately, very underused in the Church.
16 Behold, my soul delighteth in the things of the Lord; and my heart pondereth continually upon the things which I have seen and heard.
17 Nevertheless, notwithstanding the great goodness of the Lord, in showing me his great and marvelous works, my heart exclaimeth: O wretched man that I am! Yea, my heart sorroweth because of my flesh; my soul grieveth because of mine iniquities.
I know how Nephi feels. My heart sorroweth too because of my iniquities. I wish I did not sorrow but I sure do.
18 I am encompassed about, because of the temptations and the sins which do so easily beset me.
Me too! And some of those sins sure do EASILY beset me. More so the small sins that the large ones.
19 And when I desire to rejoice, my heart groaneth because of my sins; nevertheless, I know in whom I have trusted.
Yep, I groaneth also. I know in whom I have put my faith in. I'm not sure I have 100% trust tho. I want to trust Father and Jesus 100%. That is one of my goals. But right now, I think I'm at 75% trust. Lots of time I am totally lost and without hope. All I have is Father and Jesus. I guess those are times I have 100% trust. When I pray I frequently ask Father to increase my Faith, Hope, and Charity.
20 My God hath been my support; he hath led me through mine afflictions in the wilderness; and he hath preserved me upon the waters of the great deep.
21 He hath filled me with his love, even unto the consuming of my flesh.
22 He hath confounded mine enemies, unto the causing of them to quake before me.
23 Behold, he hath heard my cry by day, and he hath given me knowledge by visions in the night-time.
I know Father hears my cries. I know he hears my cries like he heard the cries of Enos when he was in the forests.
24 And by day have I waxed bold in mighty prayer before him; yea, my voice have I sent up on high; and angels came down and ministered unto me.
25 And upon the wings of his Spirit hath my body been carried away upon exceedingly high mountains. And mine eyes have beheld great things, yea, even too great for man; therefore I was bidden that I should not write them.
26 O then, if I have seen so great things, if the Lord in his condescension unto the children of men hath visited men in so much mercy, why should my heart weep and my soul linger in the valley of sorrow, and my flesh waste away, and my strength slacken, because of mine afflictions?
The above verse is the heart of this post. I'm asking myself the same questions. If I believe in Father and the Lord, and I do, then why does my soul linger in the valley of sorrow and negativity? Why do I get so easily saddened about the trials and tribulations I face when I know Father is always watching over me and Jesus is my Shepard and never leaves me? Why can't I be a happy person instead of a negative depressed person?
27 And why should I yield to sin, because of my flesh? Yea, why should I give way to temptations, that the evil one have place in my heart to destroy my peace and afflict my soul? Why am I angry because of mine enemy?
Why am I angry because of mine enemy? That's a good one. I have been angry in the past over my enemies. It sure solves nothing and creates no solutions. The only thing it causes is more depression.
28 Awake, my soul! No longer droop in sin. Rejoice, O my heart, and give place no more for the enemy of my soul.
I love 28 above. I printed that out and carry it in my pocket.
29 Do not anger again because of mine enemies. Do not slacken my strength because of mine afflictions.
30 Rejoice, O my heart, and cry unto the Lord, and say: O Lord, I will praise thee forever; yea, my soul will rejoice in thee, my God, and the rock of my salvation.
Nephi is right. We should all say O Lord, I will praise thee forever; yeah, my soul will rejoice in thee, my God, and the rock of my salvation.
31 O Lord, wilt thou redeem my soul? Wilt thou deliver me out of the hands of mine enemies? Wilt thou make me that I may shake at the appearance of sin?
32 May the gates of hell be shut continually before me, because that my heart is broken and my spirit is contrite! O Lord, wilt thou not shut the gates of thy righteousness before me, that I may walk in the path of the low valley, that I may be strict in the plain road!
Absolutely beautiful. Father, will you make me shake at the appearance of sin?
33 O Lord, wilt thou encircle me around in the robe of thy righteousness! O Lord, wilt thou make a way for mine escape before mine enemies! Wilt thou make my path straight before me! Wilt thou not place a stumbling block in my wayâ€”but that thou wouldst clear my way before me, and hedge not up my way, but the ways of mine enemy.
34 O Lord, I have trusted in thee, and I will trust in thee forever. I will not put my trust in the arm of flesh; for I know that cursed is he that putteth his trust in the arm of flesh. Yea, cursed is he that putteth his trust in man or maketh flesh his arm.
35 Yea, I know that God will give liberally to him that asketh. Yea, my God will give me, if I ask not amiss; therefore I will lift up my voice unto thee; yea, I will cry unto thee, my God, the rock of my righteousness. Behold, my voice shall forever ascend up unto thee, my rock and mine everlasting God. Amen.
And I know that if we strive to be worthy and righteous, Father will give us what we desire and need. Our desires will be given to us if they are worthy and righteous desires. On his time table but, they will be given and we are and will be taken care of, if we do our part.
Iâ€™m sorry for such a negative post. I do have faith in our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and our Heavenly Father. I also have faith in the scriptures and the Prophets. But, as Nephi said - And when I desire to rejoice, my heart groaneth because of my sins; nevertheless, I know in whom I have trusted. Yep, I desire to rejoice. I wanted this post to be a happy and uplifting one. But, right now my heart groaneth because of my little trials and tribulations.
Iâ€™ll be glad when Sunday comes and I can take the Sacrament. I do think Iâ€™m worthy to take the bread and water and I will partake of it.
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