I've always been the strong one,the one with so much faith. But not today,not lately.
I can't believe they're dead. I never thought I'd fall apart. Now there's just a mess for me to clean up. And no one knows. Notice I was gone?Watching her go through this was ripping my heart out, and so I fell. Two letters a week hold all my feeling, two letters a week save my life. He can't be with me, and so they fall from my eye - tears
Why is this all such a wreck? Had I transgressed? Indeed there is nothing like a death to bring you to your knees. Make you question Heavenly father's intent. And here's where it gets darker by the choices I made. And no one is there to comfort or talk to me. And I'm so ashamed I even missed church on Sunday! So lonely, and all that stays is His love. And Christ's spirit holds me as I cry. I climb up from this shell I created and face my broken life. 

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