My dear brothers and sisters,

Here I sit, in the middle of the night, wishing to distract myself from something that will occur in just a few hours.

Although I have suffered greatly with this man, my ex-husband, it is with sorrow that we part.  Today, he will be getting on a plane, and returning to his homeland. Will I ever see him again? I do not know. We have promised to call and email frequently. But never again will it be the same. In a few hours the hug and kiss I give him will really be Good-bye.

And no one really understands. My friends, family, ward members feel relief at his departure, and feel that I should be happy also. I am not.

I am full of sorrow, of a sense of loss, despite the fact that I have so many who love me. Including a man who loves me with an eternal love. A man I will marry and be sealed to. A man who I love beyond words to describe.

I know that I need to focus on my eternal love. And that will be what carries me through this sorrow. That and the comfort of a loving Father in Heaven, and the atonement given to me by the Savior.

Angie

Tags: Love Loss

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