Well last time my Missionaries came over they said they would talk to the mission president on my behalf. They came today for a meeting and lessons and they had the great news that the mission president approved me getting baptized even though I live with my disabled roommate/friend.

I am so happy and I feel as if all my prayers about it were not just answered by God but by the church as well. My heart is just so full of joy for the things I am learning and the gifts of God I will be a part of when I am baptized. I feel as if even now my life is taking on such a meaning and peace. I so enjoy study with the BoM and the missionaries. They always make me feel so good about myself when they get shocked by the about of effort I have made in extra research and study. They get to go into way more depth of subject since I already learned much on my own and ask more pointed and informed questions. They say that I am "on fire" and are impressed by it and I thank God for giving me an intelligence for research and grasping complex ideas. I feel proud when they are able to give me chapters to read that are extra than usual and I am finding so much more truth in BoM than I would have ever guessed. I truly believe LSD is the true church and they hold Gods true plan for his spirit children. I hope that my wonderful news can cheer anyone who reads it. =D

In other things life is not "great" ... I am still very behind financially. The stress is making me lose sleep. I look as if I have bruises under my eyes because I never feel tired enough to go to bed and once I do I can not get to sleep. Added to my sleeping disorder of hypersomnia my sleeping is so off balance and messed up. I am trying very hard to get a job and to work with the government to get the baby medicaid. He needs to get a check up but government offices are so roundabout and the tedium of dealing with them is straining. With the insurance on my car being out ride are hard to come by and a few times i have had to go against my best judgment and drive my car anyway(though never with the baby and only distances I cant walk)

I am so glad I have found the church and a true version of God to turn to! It is helping me cope and giving me hope enough not to despair like I was a few weeks ago. I am also thankful for the fact of having real friends. Usually i seclude myself but here in Utah i have a friend group .. though its an adopted one since they were my roommates friends before mine lol. I have never had such friends though nor seen this kind before. They are actually there for one another.. Shocking I know! =P Anyway one of them is totally going to save my rear by letting me borrow a bit of cash so they bank wont take my car.

I am also worried about by roommate/friend's Mom. She is acting really odd about the church and my interest in it. She seems sceptical of my intents and she thinks I should take care of all my other issues first because they are important. I thought my salvation is important! I cant understand her at all since she is LDS herself. You would think when things are bad and your lost and humbled would be the best time to go to God!?! As if I was wasting time with the missionaries and not doing other things on top of that. I have an interview for a small job on Monday so there is how I feel but she is also makes me feel intimidated. That is saying something because not many people unnerve me ever since my stint as a correctional officer lol. All I can do is continue to do what I feel is needed to get my life to right. I will show up at church on Sunday even if it is her ward and I will continue to meet with my missionaries to continue on my way to my upcoming baptism. Eventually with my actions I shall prove that I mean what I am doing and that I am worthy in Gods eyes even if not in hers.

I am also thankful for the friend who introduced me to the church because now we have another thing in common and he has been telling me interesting tid bits and giving me his favorite chapters in the BoM. I enjoy talking to him about all of it. =)

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