02/02/2009 19:51:53

I have been there, Brother.  So down that I felt like things would never come up.  I couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel that everyone was trying to guide me to.  Fortunately, the act that I was so dreading, came and went. And almost immediately there was the light. It didn't get better, not all better really quickly. But suddenly I found myself okay.  Sure there are relapses, but now, some months later, I think that I am out of that terrible state.

My situation is certainly different from yours.  We all bring our perspectives and life events into how we feel.  I hope you have someone who is there for you.  I kept my focus on him and it got me through.

For sure I felt I had gone way too many places in my life that had me on a road away from where I needed to be. I was not what God intended for me to be.  Gosh, I really screwed up.

And yet, He led me towards the path I needed to go. At a dark time, showed me the light and the way. Now the path isn't easy. One of the hardest things I have ever done. But I am holding fast to that path, and I know this time I will make it home.

There really isn't anything I can say, I know that, that will really make it all better. I know a lot of people will try, but unless they have been there, they don't really understand. We get a lot of "hang in there" and "count your blessings".  Nice words. Kind words that intend to help. At least we know someone cares.

Sounds like you are depressed. I mean a clinical state of it. Sometimes when you are at that point, it is hard to do what you know needs to be done. I could go into the physical manifestations of depression and tell you what needs to be done to help that. But you already know.

What is out of your control?  Why do you feel you have messed up so bad that you can't come back or go on?

Christ died for our sins. We do not have to suffer for them. He made it so we can be forgiven and go on. There is very little we do that can't be forgiven.

Take care. If you feel like I could be of some help, write me. 

Angie

01/26/2009 00:44:49

dr t ..i take an herb but i do not take meds currently thats a story in and of itself ..

01/24/2009 17:38:13

Did u talk to your Dr. about a med trial?

01/07/2009 19:16:48

Hey Brother,  I have been there.  There is nothing that cannot be forgiven except the forsaking of the Lord.  Yes, sometimes life sucks big time.... I was there a few months ago, wondering if I would live through it and almost didn't.  There was a point that came that I just had to do what hurt, even though everyone told me it needed to be done, I was resistive because I felt it would be so painful I wouldn't be able to survive. Not that this is all that helpful, because  it isn't giving you any suggestions, just telling you what happened in my case. But what happened is that shortly the negative energy and darkness left. I still have moments, like I guess everyone does, and I still have so much to deal with. And it came to a point I wondered what direction I needed to take. I asked God and was actually given a very direct answer.  I wish you the same. 'Cause when I go the direction He told me too, I feel peace when I go another direction that feeling, the depressed, frustrated, scared one, comes back.  I hope you gain the energy.  If you need to please write me.  I am a little weird, just ask Derick, he said he chatted or messaged with you.  But I am okay. :)  Angie

01/01/2009 20:04:23

I think I am living proof that it is never too late to repent, and that Heavenly Father and Jesus will forgive you.  As I said in my profile,  I was a Prodigal Daughter.  I broke almost all of the commandments, and broke my temple covenants. Eventually, I was out of the Church, completely.  But, I have come back into full fellowship with the saints, am temple- worthy again, and I know I have been forgiven.  It hasn't  always been easy, but it is so worth it.  Don't give up.  As long as you live, there is always hope.

12/29/2008 22:41:01

Andrew, you are definitely not alone. You are definitely not the only one going thru tuff times, very tuff and sad and bad times.  Please understand that Jesus went thru the Atonement for you, specifically for you.  If you could go back to the time of the Atonement, take the blood Jesus shed, and put it under a microscope - you would find your name and only your name in that blood.  You would find, in every drop of blood, your name and your name only.  You must understand that Jesus went thru the Atonement for YOU.   Please say this - "Jesus went thru the Atonement for Andrew Cothran."  Say it because it's true.  Jesus went thru the Atonement for you because He loves you and no matter how many times you sin or how many mistakes you make, Jesus is going to forgive you because He has already paid for all the sins and mistakes you will ever make.  You are not lost, you are never lost.  And I have to believe deep down you know this is all true because if you didn’t you would not be here on lds.net. 

 

12/29/2008 20:06:41

I'm sorry to hear that you are so down.  Remember after the storm comes the rainbow!

12/29/2008 14:56:24

Andrew,

 

Life has troughs but also peaks. If you're in a trough a peak is on it's way. Something causes a trough. Talk to someone, anyone to feel better. A peak will appear in time. Your life may seem sucky but there is always hope. Whatever you've done can be sorted, whether you can believe that or not. You've taken the first step in recognizing the need to progress. Well done, mate. Talk to someone to progress. The sooner you talk, the sooner you'll sort it and feel better.

 

Kind regards,

 

Marcus

12/29/2008 14:00:20

hang in there andrewcothran. It is in our greatest moment of weakness when we are able to let our own strength fail that the strength of Jesus Christ lifts us up and carries us over troubled waters on to safe shores. 

12/29/2008 09:49:33

Andy

 

You were so kind and reached out to me when I was so low. If there is anything I can do for you PM me. Sometimes we just have to hang in there and put one foot in front of the other and just get through the fog. Sometimes I feel like I have so messed up my life too and feel there is no hope but there is.  There is always hope its just that sometimes we lack the ability to see it.  I'm here for you and will keep you in my prayers.  Please take care.