You know those times when you have it all, and you know it? When everything is perfect, the kids are doing well, their grades are up, they have jobs, you're able to pay your bills, even if you don't have the job you were "supposed" to have, your married to your eternal mate, la la la... Doesn't it just scare the crap out of you? It does me. At least, it does now. Now I know what it's like to have it all, and to lose most of it.
I still have my faith. I keep telling myself that. I still know what's true. I may not be the best member, but at least I do know what's true. Although my life has, albeit momentarily, taken a rough road, I know I'm not alone. I guess that's what's different this time from when I've lost everything in my life before. Because I have lost everything before, including myself. This time, though, I think I'm doing a little bit better. I still believe in the plan of salvation. I still believe in the Church, and I still know that Jesus lived and died for us.
Last night I was really, really sick. Haven't been able to eat or sleep for days, too much pain, on and on... I finally asked my husband for a blessing and, whaddya know, a couple hours later I was sleeping and have been improving since then. Just one more example of what I know to be true. Guess I needed to be reminded of what really matters so that as I start dating again I can be sure to date someone who is worthy of holding the Priesthood because I wasn't really sure that was so important to me up until this morning.
As I'm losing everything, I guess I'm finding what really matters, again. I hope you do too.

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