As I sit here at my computer typing my first blog entry I feel like an outsider and a coward all wrapped into one person.  An outsider because I am not a member of this wonderful church.

A coward because in order to get the ball rolling I want to call the missionaries and have a talk with them but I am afraid to.  I am also afraid to go to church, so keep making excuses to myself of why not to go.  My main excuse I give to myself is I have to work on Sunday's because that is when I make the most money on my paycheck.  Why am I afraid to come back to the lord's church?  Pride?  Maybe.  It could be going back to church and admitting my reason's for resigning were wrong.  Having to look my father in the face and tell him that he was right.  Someday I would regret my decision?  At this point I do not know what is stopping me.  The wonderful thing about this gospel is we can all make mistakes and come back and repent of our sins and once again return home to this church.  Maybe the lord has put me through this so I can have a stronger testimony of his gospel.  I don't know.  Our heavenly works in mysterious ways.  If Joseph Smith can lead the saints to Kirtland, then Missouri and finally Nauvoo, Why can't I take the first steps to return home to this church?

Tags: The Courage To Come Home

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