Not sure where to start... i feel like im loosing control of my life and theres nothing i can do ... everything is falling apart ... whats hurts the most is my family is falling apart and i feel like theres nothing i can do ... theres not one moment in my house some one is not yelling at someone else... seems like its mostly my parents ... to sit back and not take sides is probably one of the hardest things to do ... tried to stick up for my mom the other day and my dad chewed me out for a good hour or so .. so ya decided its best to just keep my mouth shut ... and you'd think the problems in my family would be enough ... but no .. i have so much medical issues right now its really hard ecspecialy with my parents not really having the money to get me looked at... i've been on and off sick for about 8 months.. and i've had alot of back and ankle problems.. these last two months i havent had my period .. and no im not pregnant ... my mom tells me i shouldnt worry about it .. but how can i not .. i've never missed one in the 5 and a half years i've been having them .. i just have this feeling something not right ... but i guess i wont know since my parents dont have the money to take me in ... maybe im just over reacting ... i dont know .... and on top of this all i've lost my will power to do anything ... my grades in school are starting to reflect it.. im not the only one that realized i've changed one of my friends said something the other day ... kinda got me thinking ... im not happy the way life is going and instead of trying to makes things better i pull away from them try to ignore them ... in the end im only hurting myself more ... pulling myself farther and farther into depression and farther and farther away from those i love