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I cannot live this way any longer ..
Posted On 03/19/2009 17:54:59 by AndrewCothran
 I suffer from such severe anxiety that i cannot venture more than a mile from my home . I am totally dependent on my mother. I am not under medical care i cannot get to a drs office and a dr is not going to come see me . I have tried so hard to get help ..my mom and i have racked our brains trying to find help and there is none for me .. I live in  rural area of north carolina where there are not allot of resources We have tried social services , we have tried one agency after another and they cannot help me either because i dont meet some qualification or because its impossible for me to travel to their office ... I am stuck , my mental illness is getting worse i have obsessions and compulsions and that is a living hell in itself .. I only see four options
1.Suicide
2.Waste away
3. Or find someone to help me so i can help myself


And before anyone accusses me of seeking sympathy or attention let me assure you that isnt what i want ..in fact i cant stand it makes me angry ..i dont need a pat on the head i need guidance ..i need a reason to hope ..I need help ..

I believe in responsibility and self help but there comes a time when you cannot help yourself .

I need some direction .




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From: Madriglace
03/20/2009 12:22:28

Call your bishop. Ask for a blessing to help you get to help. Ask for help through the church. Social services are there for you to use. Your leaders are there for you, contact your Relief Society President ... she can be a great help and comfort to you. The biggest thing that helped me when I was in a similar situation was going to the Lord and begging for help. My prayers were answered ... not the way I thought but answered none the less.


 


I have a friend with agoraphobia ... she is such an inspiration to me. Part of her treatment was to have a "security blanket" for lack of a better word. Hers was an bright teal colored umberella. She went from not being able to leave her home to going to Germany for 10 days. As long as she had her umberella she could do anything. She no longer needs it to leave the house. You can do this ... I know you can. God bless.



From: Hemidakota
03/20/2009 07:38:23
Ditto my brothers and sisters last remark. If there is anything we can do for you, just ask....:)


From: Ayin
03/20/2009 07:06:40

Agoraphobia is a real illness and i feel for you I am sure you have tried many things.  The state you live in should be able to help you to some point also calling the universities  for help I would call every dr., center and clinic in hte state  also contact your town mayor  trustee ect. they can not just sweep this under the rug.


This is serious for you. In many rural areas they have someone to come out to help . Also another thing I would do is talk to bishop of the church and ask for a blessing.  They will come to you and perhaps be able to help with contacting others to help to get your the help you and yoru family needs. If you would like to contact me and i will help call places to get your help I will No one should go threw this.



From: RobertP
03/20/2009 02:12:21
Andrew, I am not lost on what you are going through.  Some know of easy ways.  In fact at work today the conversation turned toward antidepressants because so many I work with are on them.  They have found relief through medications.  I am taking the 'hard' road.  I can relate to what they experience without the medication.  If I know anything, it couldn't be written briefly here.  I know when there is nothing else, you have to keep faith 'on'.  That part has to be on.  Even when it's not.  God can help you out.  I know components of things that can help, sure, emphasize the can part.  Nothing is ever easy though.  Hang in there.  When you are more 'up', pray for your future self that might find himself a little more down.  I can approach this from the psychological side a little, nutritional/biological side with hypoglycemia, glandular, adrenals etc, bacterial, candida etc., yeah, I've looked around, and not completely to no avail.  It can be done.  Really though, it starts inside.  Faith ON.  What you need will come to you on the other side of your efforts, sometimes slowly, but ever so surely.  Isn't that how it all works?  Victory is now in sight.  Having gone the circles, I would start with Candida, then nutrition, then CBT, cognitive behavioral therapy to learn how to turn off the underlying anxiety, maybe a little brain training that I currently have a link to on my profile to learn consciously what to expect from unconscious development.  Sounds like a lot, and it is.  Little by little, over time.  Of course keep your spirit on course with prayer and scripture study, but know life demands we learn much more than this.  If all of the above is not helpful, hang in there anyway.  Loose threads are all I can offer here.  You can pull on them and see where they take you, or not.  RobertP


From: AndrewCothran
03/19/2009 18:38:24
the system cannot help me we have been down that road it is a dead end ...if i were pregnant then perhaps but im not .lol ...so ...

but i will continue to reach out and i appreciate yore kindness ..i only made the comment about sympathy because some people have a stick up there ..rear and will only believe what they want to believe about others .
i hate it when people pre judge others .



From: AELK
03/19/2009 18:31:06
I understand this must be a very difficult situation for you. But there is something that I would like you to consider.... you come here, even though it may not seem like the real world, it is. We are real people that you chat here with. And you are fine. Consider to reach out in this way.  Touch others, talk and keep communication going.  It may be less threatening than being with someone physically but at least it is a way for you to begin to make connections to others.

I know it is a challenge to get into the system and get help. Know there are a lot of people out there who suffer in the same way. You are not alone.  At least you recognize it and know that you are ill.  And you seriously want help and want to get better.

Put yourself in the mode of trying to find help. Search the internet, there has to be something there for you.  If you throw yourself and your focus into finding help, I know that you will succeed.

If I think of anything I will share it with you, any ideas I have.

Hang in there.  Please feel free to write me. I really mean it, not just saying it to be polite. I have a challenge... a learning disability..not that it got 'fixed' but I have learned how to compensate. And I have had some mental health issues not long ago.. survived but almost didn't. So if you want to chat with someone who has been walking the same road, fell off too.... I'm the girl to talk to. :)



From: AndrewCothran
03/19/2009 18:04:41
sorry that is three reasons  but i only see the last as a viable option .




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