I suffer from such severe anxiety that i cannot venture more than a mile from my home . I am totally dependent on my mother. I am not under medical care i cannot get to a drs office and a dr is not going to come see me . I have tried so hard to get help ..my mom and i have racked our brains trying to find help and there is none for me .. I live in rural area of north carolina where there are not allot of resources We have tried social services , we have tried one agency after another and they cannot help me either because i dont meet some qualification or because its impossible for me to travel to their office ... I am stuck , my mental illness is getting worse i have obsessions and compulsions and that is a living hell in itself .. I only see four options
1.Suicide
2.Waste away
3. Or find someone to help me so i can help myself
And before anyone accusses me of seeking sympathy or attention let me assure you that isnt what i want ..in fact i cant stand it makes me angry ..i dont need a pat on the head i need guidance ..i need a reason to hope ..I need help ..
I believe in responsibility and self help but there comes a time when you cannot help yourself .
I need some direction .