when i feel i am alone and no one with me i am crying in the dark and saying "why i lost everything?" I'm trying to find myself but i cant found where i am?..Its really hard to think and really hard to do anything, I dont know what to do I dont know where to go.....

My mother came up to my mind.. She is the last and only person that i know were going to understand me and she will comfort me.... I need her hug, I need her love..

But i am so disappointed when i was there, She didnt gave me the hug that I need..even if asking " How am I for almost 10 years I am not with her....

She not surprise when she saw me after a years.. I cant seethe excitement that I expecting to see on her face...I want to run away in that place, the only hope in my heart is lossing to find someone to comfort me and who can give me a big hug while telling me" Dont worry everything will be fine" The only thing that i can do at that time is just close my eyes and take a deep breath saying.." Lord i know this part of your plan i put my trust into your hand"

    When I was arive but i dont know where the jeepny is stop and I take of there I am walking in the road near to church gate when i look inside gate I wonder when i saw the woman walking in the ground and i wishper i know that woman When she is near to me I recognizse her and she know too She is the woman lived in the place where i was born when she saaaw me she gave me a hug and asking " how i am?" I feel so happy at the time like a bird found the bough to take a rest I feel i found someone that I been looking for the one who can understand me and judging me without knowing my reason behind it...I found someone who can I can borrow the shoulder when the time i want to cry....She is Ate Analyn...I am so bleesed to meet this person to be my guide....

      While a go, Ate Analyn have a lots of problem because she is widow with 4 kids... I want to help her but i cant do anything... I lived with her ans i am thinking that i am the one of her burden...I decided to leave her house because i dont want to be the one of her burden....

      While i am not with her i found a job as a sales lady to support my daily needs but even if i have that work I feel incomplete I'm looking for something but I dont know what and again  my mind is starting to think again... thinking everything my mind is in trouble again while ia alone in the room I heared my phone its ringing when i get that I saaw Ate Analyn name she is calling at me when I answerd it She is asking me where I amwhat happining to me?..... after I talked with her she send me amessage she telling me "" Come back here before the enrollment is starting you will go back to school to continue your study" My tears are faliing in my eyes i cant controled it and I asked her "Why you still caring at me and worrying at me? even if I am not with you?" and she answered " Of course I'm worry about you , you are my sister remember?" and she said " Please listen to me even if  now only.." Now I realize I am not alone have alot of people around me..... THanks for Ate Analyn I appreciate her love,effort and support for me..

     I will gave million of thanks to Heavenly Father to gave this woman for me to be my guidance...being my eldest sister...and my bestfriend...

     Now she is helping to finish my study to build my confidence that I can do everything She teach me how to become strong for every trials that comes my way told me that dont run and hide if its hard...

     Ate Analyn Thank you for being part of my life...

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