One thing I must disagree with, and that is calling you lost...such a negative connotation. Other than that, listen to your friends, sheep. If I could add anything I would, but your other friends are speaking clearly and i agree with it all.

hey Lost....  my opinion on your blog is this..............  assume that your chances of going on a typical 2 yr mission for the church is history.  So, now what.  You mentioned something about going to school.  Great!!  You mentioned something about wanting to not get excommunicated.  Great!!  You know, if in one blog you are mentioning a mission AND excommunication....chances are........my friend...  a mission isnt a valid expectation.  So, dust yourself off, stand up straight, look ahead and walk.  Forget about whats behind you.  Remember, the further ahead you walk, the more those things behind you get further away. 

If you seriously want to repent and serve a mission, God will make a way.  Don't give up.

Still praying for ya!

-Jenny

Lost my friend... getting "ex'd" is not an end... its a loving way to rebuild you if that happens to get you in position to be accepted into the celestial kingdom.  Its NOT AN END and you are still accepted at church.  Its tough - yep.... but its your one more chance...

You are young.. I dont know the details of your sin... but one of two things is true... its not as bad to ex you (maybe disfellowship) and if you do get ex'd you have time to work back. D&C 103:36

And there are lots of diff. missions to serve... not just the trad. one maybe.

And be up and down dear... we will be here to support you either way.

Lost ~ I'm working with a young man right now that says he wants to serve a mission and says he is afraid that what he's done in the past will hold him back.  He changes his story so may times I think the one thing holding him back is his lack of honesty. 

You can serve a mission as long as you haven't turn 25 years of age.  THAT is what you need to remember.  Repentance is all you need and I know you have had a chance of heart, a conversion if you will. 

Read Alma 7:11 (my slurpy scripture) and remember temptation, and afflictions and everything else, and through the atonement and your repentance you can do what your heart desires!   

focus your efforts on the willingness to do anything to repent. IF you get excommunicated (which depending on what you did is probably unlikely if you have not been through the temple to recieve your endowments I think) it will only be because that is what is needed for you to repent....so just focus on that third part of "anything to repent" rather than the first two. I don't know what you did, but there is an elder serving in my area right now who left 1.5 years later to have sufficient time to repent of things...I don't know exactly what he was repenting of, but in his words when he was trying to help me realize that total repentance is possible,  there wasn't anything that I could have done that he had not done, confessed, and overcome to the point where he is worthy to serve the Lord. It took him a little bit of time and meeting with his bishop every week for 3 months, then every other week for 3 months and then once a month for 6 months, and a lot of prayer, tears, and study...but he is here and because he went through the complete process of repentence he is completely worthy to serve and doesn't have to worry about it anymore. On the flip side I have another friend who was so focused on the "anything to be able to go on a mission" part that he decided not to tell his bishop....9 months into his mission he broke down and finally confessed to the mission president and was sent home. He is now disfellowshipped and working on repenting....the thing is though, once he does repent he will be no less worthy than someone who served a 2 year mission....a mission is not a saving ordinance...its not something you have to have to make it to exhaltation...repentence and the temple are...focus on those. When you talk to your bishop ask if there is anyway for you to still serve a mission...he will best be able to help you in that. Just focus on repenting.