I donâ€™t see many movies by myself, and the ones I do see are usually well-screened before I see them. Tonight, I went to a movie that I thought would be a decent story. Well, I was surprised as the movie progressed that the theme of it was centered around murder and more killing. I had paid for it, and I had a big bag of popcorn to eat, so I stayed. I ate fast as I endured the murder and killing. Every time a killing took place, I had to remind myself that this wasnâ€™t the type of entertainment I really enjoyed.
I held to the thought that the Savior had suffered the pain of those who had been murdered in cold blood. Though this thought made me feel grateful for the Atonement, I struggled to maintain a positive attitude about the movie. I was able to feel more comfortable as the intensity of the killing slowed. But, occasionally the killing would increase and I had to remind myself to think better thoughts.
It was dark in the theater as I looked around and tried to see the faces of those who were there. I didnâ€™t see anyone I knew, thank goodness, but I did hear the voices of young children laughing and cheering whenever someone was blown-up or obliterated. I thought that perhaps this movie reminded them of an adult arcade game.
I felt uneasy to be at this movie and witness the carnage and killing. I wanted to leave, but every time I wanted to get up and leave the movie got interesting. I wanted to stay and see the outcome.
I stayed until I could hardly stand it any longer. After the main character of the film suddenly let out with a burst of cuss words that I wouldnâ€™t want my mother to hear, I stood up and walked out. As soon as I stood up, I felt better. I didnâ€™t care who saw me stand and stumble in the dark to get out. I hoped I wouldnâ€™t trip over someoneâ€™s foot.
I was happier to be away from the theater, but disappointed that what I had hoped would be a good movie wasnâ€™t. I was the only one who left the theater at that time, but I wasnâ€™t embarrassed. It was better for me to be true to myself and leave rather than to remain seated and lower the moral standard I have set.