I so relate. Before we moved out east we lived in a small community, 800 people, on the Southern UT/NV border that was heaven on earth and about 90% active LDS. I had 6 kids at home still then. We suddenly moved out East and found ourselves in a Branch with very few members and youth which to our surprise were not what we were used to as "traditional" LDS. My daughters struggled desperately. They hung in there as long as they could but as soon as they turned 18 and were able to, they all moved back to Southern Utah within an hour of where we had lived. It is sad to say, but they were in that branch for over a year and neither of them left a friend behind when they left. I'm not lying blame either direction, just stating facts. I guess my point is, you are in the same situation, and for whatever resons only you know you have gone inactive instead of toughing it out. Not judging. One of my daughters is as Molly Mormon as they come and at the end I was having to almost force her to still attend she was so depressed. Long story short, you are almost 18 too and will be able to make the right decision for your self. My suggestion would be, get where you are comfortable, commit to trying activity for at least a month, real activity, and see if you still feel the same way.
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