I... Have to agree with PrisonChaplain on this one. I think you need to identify why you don't believe and what you like about the church. You -have- to be true to what you believe. I can promise you I believe. If you were struggling with belief, I would say go. If you were trying to find truth, I would say go. But it sounds like you have decided it -isn't- true and nothing that is said will change your mind.
What you're suggesting is that it doesn't matter if something is true or not so long as you're content. That's simply not true. Here's a litmus test for people who say that the only thing that's important is personal happiness:
"Hey, Bob."
"Hey, Joe. How's your daughter?"
"Oh, she's good, Bob. I love her so much, I only want her to be happy. That's why I bought a lifetime supply of opium and am mainlining it for her so she never has to think, she will never have to feel pain. Just a never-ending, unthinking bliss."
Were you filled with horror at that? Most people are. The reason they are is that we instinctively -know- we were meant for more than pleasure. Parents let their kids go to school, knowing that they will skin their knees and have fights with friends and cry when they break up with the one they think they're in love with when they're thirteen. They know that the child must grow and develop, to be better, to face pain even though it doesn't give them immediate joy. You know in your heart that's the truth. Act on it.
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