I think a lot of people will understand where you are coming from. When I look around my ward and stake I see plenty of people who's understanding of the gospel is limited. The thing is that we all learn at different paces and some people may never fully grasp certain things. That is why we are all going to be judged individually according to our own standards. I have similar problems to you and when I spoke to the Stake President about it he recomended that I change my prayers to asking for help for me; to give me strength and guidance. When I did that I no longer had to keep bitting my tongue because I felt a reassuring spirit around me. I also did ask for blessings because doing that brought him in closer proximity to the spirit. I also made sure we did family scripture study and prayer each day. The important thing to remember is that we do not have the power to change anyone but Heavenly Father does. Be patient with your husband - he is coming to church and if you keep nagging him he might stop. He'll get there but it is just taking him longer.
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