Well DeborahC -- I kindly have to disagree a little about what you are saying.
I don't feel his behavior is a reflection on me.
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When I talk about my concern for him, it's not for me, but for him. I love him and I know him. He has a very caring heart and is a very loving person and so when I see him go against this innate quality it saddens me. I'm looking for ways to support and bring out that quality. I'm not looking for ways to put him down. I think you heard the words I spoke in my OP but missed entirely my tone.
I know I didn't explain very well (because it would have been pages long) how much I appreciate his sweet heart, his hard work at keeping a roof over our head (in these hard times) his patience with me and his support in my callings and on and on and on. I do tell him these things too.
There is a difference between being judgemental for selfish purposes and being justly judgemental. I know I'm not perfect and I have many things to work on as well and if we love each other we should want to support each other in becoming our best. Like I said in a earlier post -- I know the outward appearance of this man I married is rough around the edges -- I appreciate that in him and I let a lot of things go by the wayside because they have nothing to do with who he is on the inside. But when things go against who he is on the inside, his true light of Christ dims, that's when I want to support him.
I do pray constantly that my heart/attitude will change and I will stop feeling like he's not worthy to hold the priesthood. That's a harsh judgement. If I go along with what Hemi said and I kind of feel like my concerns are legitimate -- what do I do. I will pray some more.
Just a little sidenote -- I did, for my own understanding, go to LDS.org and looked under the topic homosexuality to see what I could find. I found 2 beautiful quotes from Pres. Hinckley and a wonderful talk by Elder Holland (there were more but I stuck with those things to share). Last night when we were talking I told him that I wanted to know how the Church felt about this topic and would you like to hear what I found. He was receptive and He likes me to read to him, so I did. He didn't say much when I finished, but I could tell he listened. I left it with that. There was nothing in me that wanted to say, 'see I told you so.' That would have been wrong and the Spirit would not have been with me if I had come from that attitude.
Thanks everyone for your posts -- they have helped me think things out.
