[Misshalfway]

Well, in a nutshell, I feel like I got hit by a truck. LOL

My immune system seems to be non-existent. I catch anything and everything and have it days longer than anyone I know. The last six weeks have been filled with six different viruses varying from Bronchitis to the stomach flu. This has been going on for a year and a half. I got Cryptospiridium last fall and Mono right after that. I am pretty sure the Crypto took a couple of years off my life (I was so incredibly sick) but I think that the combo of that and the Mono and all the stress in my life were the perfect storm to damage my immune system.

In addition to that, I can't sleep, I have the worst PMS known to man (Which I never have had before this year), I have candida issues, I can't loose weight for the life of me, I am ALWAYS tired and even the simplest activities wear me out, and yes I have strange body aches and a headache every single day. I even have weird temperature issues with my body. I am either really really cold or abnormally hot. My husband calls me a space heater which is so different than all the years he has known me.

I was exercising in the summer months and really started to feel better and then Sept hit and my PMS hit an all time low. Three weeks of completely random meaningless hell. And then the virus marathon started again. I have seen four doctors. No one has any answers. And then last week my neighbor was chatting with me and suggested I look into Chronic Fatigue. I already had it in the back of my mind and had mentioned it to my GP. He said...."Well, I might think that too if I were you." but then said nothing else expect recommending I try gammaglobulin shots which ironically enough they don't make anymore. Anyway, my neighbor knows a Dr near my home that deals only in CFS and Fibro. too. I am trying to get them on the phone for an appointment. My neighbor also gave me two great books to read. So......I am trying to learn as much as I can. It seems to me that I am my best Dr. at this point.

Truth is, I would really like NOT to be tired and sick all the time. I try my best to fake it with the kids. I try to sleep when they are at school or nap with my four year old. This last week I haven't been able to stay awake. I slept five hours on Sunday. My husband didn't have the heart to wake me for church. I do the B12 and a million other supplements, but nothing seems to make a difference. My Dr. did diagnose me with PMDD and put me on prozac which I must say is helping, but from what I am reading, there is a strong connection with the PMDD and Candida which is also very related to the CFS. I think diet is my first line of defense. I just have to sort thru exactly what I need to do because the Candida diet and the CFS diet seem to conflict.

Anyway....blah blah blah. I am sorry to hear Elphie that you are dealing with this too. It is amazingly hard. And I don't think many people "get it". I drop off my daughter at preschool everyday and I swear her teacher thinks I am the walking dead. I look so pale and tired most days. It kinda makes me want to hide away.

Anyway, much love to you. Have you thought at all about Candida???