Originally Posted by Lexish
Elgama - No, I haven't. I have thought about asking my grandpa or someone, but, weird as this may sound, it seems too personal. *sigh* I realize that is backwards, and exactly why I should do it.
Tubaloth - Sometimes it is hard to remember that dating and friendship are two different things, thank you! I will have to think some more about this.
I appreciate what you're going through and I understand how hard it is to write some of these things down.
Just know that, regardless of what it seems like right now(Being surrounded by the alumni of BYU), everyone goes through a struggle with their testimony at some point in their life. Right now, you're experiencing what everyone young adult does: They have to grow in to their own testimony as they stretch out and experience life, finding out what it is that they really believe.
Try attending the temple. Find friendships among those who believe like you do as well; Nobody is expected to make it purely on their own.
Many people experience, when going forth from high school, a feeling of isolation and sadness. This isn't just you. Know that you aren't alone, that you shouldn't be afraid. Know that you're loved.
When you've done that, look frankly at your life and decide where you want it to go and what you believe. When you can do that free of fear, you can make the decision and trust in God that He'll keep you safe.