You're not a hypocrite. As my bishop pointed out in Gospel Doctrine class a few weeks ago, he said, "We ALL come to church every Sunday sinners".
Remember that poem, "The Race"? Remember that we didn't come to earth perfect. We came to be perfected. That is the journey. Stripping ourselves from ungodliness is our task and this is why Christ died for us. All we can do is keep trying, rising each time we fall, learning how not to trip again and if we do because of the next rut or pitfall, well then, we just get up again, and again and again and keep going. The race is about moving forward, not standing still, or walking off, or giving up or lying down in defeat. I see none of these actions in your posts. I see your willingness to move forward. We are all sinners and all deal with our own imperfections.
Just keep moving forward. Get up and win the race.
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"No unhallowed hand can stop the work from progressing; persecutions may rage, mobs may combine, armies may assemble, calumny may defame, but the truth of God will go forth boldly, nobly, and independent, till it has penetrated every continent, visited every clime, swept every country, and sounded in every ear, till the purposes of God shall be accomplished, and the Great Jehovah shall say the work is done" (History of the Church, 4:540).
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