I was thinking about you today and just hoping that you are taking some time to NOT concentrate on this problem and perhaps joy and work in other areas of your life. Sometimes when we put so much energy and vigilance into our problems, they have more strength. Remember recovery is a journey and it really isn't about the destination, it is about just getting to our goals today. It is just like climbing stairs. It really only matters with regards to the one right in front of you. Stair 73 up ahead can just wait its turn.
I guess maybe just don't forget to count your blessings too. Don't let this thing define who you are. And I hope you are celebrating your victories....even if they are small to the rest of human kind. I think anyone who has gone thru this process knows how precious the hard fought victories really are.