[john doe]

After talking to him I've decided I would like to try to go back after I take some time to contemplate a little more. I also need to smooth things over with the rest of the church leadership that I feel are still angry at me. I think this is definitely a step in the right direction.

I doubt that they are angry with you. I would imagine that they are more hurt that you would think and say such things about them before trying to understand the situation more fully. Although, the hurt can turn to disgust if this becomes a pattern with you. Dragging people and the church through the mud every time you choose to become offended has a way of making people a little callous when dealing with you.