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Originally Posted by citygirl

Have faith in Him, He will always make a way in the right time but you have to do your part.

This is what I have been trying to hold to.

Originally Posted by RachelleDrew

I think sometimes we focus too much on being the "perfect mormon family". There is no one shining example of a good LDS home. Everybody's family is different.

LOL, this is something I think I struggle with because my best friend and the only other member that I socialize with locally is the RS 2nd Counselor, her husband is EQ 1st Counselor, and they seem like the model mormon family. So that's the bar I see

Originally Posted by Misshalfway

It sounds to me like you and your husband need to talk about some of these feelings. If he is indeed rolling his eyes, then he isn't standing by his promise to back you up on faith based decisions. If you are feeling ridiculed, that can't be good for the trust you feel or for the example you both are setting for your children.

Could you bring this up with your H and explain how you feel and then make it safe for honest responses from him? Once you validate each other, then you can move to negotiating some solution that may work better for the two of you. If he disagrees with what is happening, perhaps he could think of a kinder way of addressing it.

I think I agree with Racheldrew in that FHE's can be recreational and inclusive activities. But I think we shouldn't forget that the teaching of the gospel to children is to be done in the home first. We shouldn't rely on church only to make sure our kids have a solid understanding.

I don't know exactly what to say about how you are feeling about the church. Sounds like you are slipping into some isolation. What about talking to the RS pres? This isn't a worthiness issue. The bishop isn't needed. Perhaps the RS pres could adjust your callings so that you were more involved or so that social opportunities could be opened up for you. It is hard to be a part member family. I think you need some extra support. Are there other partmember families in your area? Maybe you need to make a friend with someone in the same boat.

And you know, maybe this is just another one of those spiritual down times for you. Your spiritual tank is low and you just need a good refill. Put your energies into the filling, instead of the worrying because you aren't full.

We do need to talk about it, I think it's probably mostly my insecurity combined with the fact that I know internally he thinks all the stuff we do as mormons is unnecessary.

I would feel a lot less apprehensive about the FHE issue, if I was a lot better at making sure we did our religion curriculum during our school day.

Slipping into isolation is exactly what I am trying not to do, but I'm not doing such a good job. My best friend who we have standing appointments with 2x a week is really bearing the burden of keeping me from drowning and that's not fair to her. It's funny you mention adjusting callings, because I meant to mention in the post that I don't have any which I know is hurting. I wish I knew of any other part member families, but as far as I know there aren't.

This may not be a worthiness issue on the surface, but I do need to confess and I'm really having a hard time with the lay clergy thing. This is the first time that I've felt uncomfortable with it, but it's really hard for me to trust in confidentiality when he'll be at work with my dad in the morning. I'm sure it's the adversary, but I don't know how to get past that.

Thank you all for your words. They've given me something to chew on.