All I can say since I've been in your position is to remember that your relationship with Heavenly Father is just between you and Him- not you, him, and the prayer group. If you solid in your faith you should be able to transcend from all that situation into a place that will keep your faith satisfied. We all get caught up in that but the trick is to look beyond "people" because dealing with "people," "fellowmen" or whatever you wish to call them means that you're going to be dealing with personalities. These personality have the power, in some instances, to affect your experience...(and we need the dot, dot, dots) but only if you allow them.
You are there for your faith. The moment you realize and come to terms with your purpose you will see how things will get better. Why? Because your focus will be in maintaining a good relationship with Heavenly Father and not with the prayer group.
Now, should you continue attending it? Abso-bloody-lutely! Why seek for alternatives when you're not one to Heavenly Father. To him you are THE ONE! Don't stop going. Allow yourself to transcend from all your human feelings and show by example how fellowship should really look like. Lead by example. Leaving serves no purpose.
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