[Gwen]

That's why I didn't actually want to read them, just show up for the discussion. Not be antagonistic or defensive. Not even overly participate. Be a "shy participant" so to speak and then if the conversation goes in way off directions then I can give my thoughts on what is being said. As I've said, this woman has a right to share her story. What is offensive is that she is sharing her story as though it's also my story and I need saving.

I have been honest in my struggles and doubts in the past, some recent past. I think I've come a long way and am much stronger now. I was called last Sunday as the temple prep teacher. I don't need to be playing with garbage (A test from God vs temptation from satan? lol). Just thinking being there as a first hand person that has experienced Mormonism and can give additional perspective they didn't get in the book might be helpful.

I think I may go in and personally talk to the director of the library before the first book is read.

I spoke with my neighbors about it. They are very strong and faithful ppl but not lds. We have a lot of the same perspective on god though. Always have fun conversations. He said he would "take it as sign from god that he doesn't need to socialize with those ppl. Make a formal complaint and let it go." So I asked him something like "what about denying god's name? Isn't that condemned? Should I be standing up for my testimony with this kind of thing?" He paused a moment and then gave me an interesting perspective. He said (not an exact quote lol), "If you were already part of the group. These were ppl you already knew and then these books came up. If they didn't already know your faith then it's time to stand up and speak. Don't deny your god. But that's not the case. This is a group you were thinking about joining. You are looking to become part of something that clearly doesn't want you. Not sure you will gain much by infiltrating."