[Max3732]

I've been investigating the church on and off for the past couple years. I'd been meeting with missionaries in my area several times a week and they went through all the lessons again and answered a bunch of my questions.

Periodically they've asked me to think about baptism dates, which I have and I've pushed back. I'm someone whose been following commandments like the word of wisdom my whole life and have basically been following most of the teachings, but I'm still not comfortable with some of the more specific doctrine like exultation.

Despite this the missionaries and people in the ward all think I'm ready to get baptized as its only a first step. In my last meeting with the missionaries I told them my mom is sick and I don't want to get baptized till she gets better as I don't want to put more stress on her and make her worse.

I don't know if they didn't understand or they've been taught to push baptism, but they didn't seem to care and just reiterating how important baptism is and that I should do it anyway. I told them they've done a great job explaining and helping me learn and that even though I'm not going to get baptized for a little while I gain a lot from discussing my concerns and meeting with them.

After this I could see a huge change in them and they said their purpose is to bring people to Christ to get baptized and that if I'm not going to do it there's nothing else for them to teach me. I asked them to meet again and they said it depends on whether I'll get baptized.

Basically now I feel like the missionaries have gone from friends helping me understand the LDS gospel to used car salesman trying to ring up numbers and when they realized I wasn't going to buy the car from them they don't want to spend anymore time on me.

If I want to learn more should I forget about these missionaries completely and try talking the ones on mormon.org or will I have the same problem with them? One of the negative things I've heard about the church is that they care more for other members than their own families and this experience of wanting baptism for me now rather than waiting a few months even if it makes my mom seriously ill kind of confirms that. So is that unusual?