It sounds to me like you need to integrate with the ward more. you really need to attend church weekly. even if you aren't ready for baptism, you should live your life as if you are a member. Test the doctrines by living them. I would recommend visiting with the bishop and even look at getting a ward missionary or home teachers to transition you from missionaries to ward members. You don't need the missionaries any more. The reason missionaries only stay in a ward for a few months at a time is so that people investigating the church don't rely on friendships or the missionary/investigator relationship to sustain them. The ward is your family, not the missionaries. So, my advice is get involved in your ward, and move on from the missionaries. you don't need them to teach you. You need your ward.
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