I confess I will probably be ticked off for a while. I will be happy to be diagnosed (if I am) and treated, but I will also mourn the lost opportunities and wasted time. It may explain (though not excuse), my drug use as a teenager. Marijuana was a glorious panacea to me. It made my mission very difficult at times. It took me a decade to finish one year of college, and that's all I've finished. My wife has complained that I don't pay enough attention to her. I have been labeled as "selfish." I have had a hard time seeing the good things in life, so I have been guilty of the heinous sin of ingratitude. I have experienced repeated disappointment and aggravation. I have constantly wondered why I fail over and over again and can't quite measure up. I have not moved up in my career. Most of the time I feel like doom is on the horizon and I am barely keeping my head above water. I am very frustrated with my life. I feel I am not who I should be. I am an underachiever.
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