Help :'(

SkyWishes · #1 (**permalink**) 07-22-2008, 01:11 PM

I need advice right now I am in tears. I came back to church last year and only a few months a go I was told I could take the sacrement again. After me and the bishop decided that my past was more abuse as I wasn't very aware (as I was only a teenager). However today, I let some one come to my house and have sex with me. I can't stop crying. I havn't had any friends for eight years (because of being ill with mental health) and for the first time in my life I have made friends at institute, Girls my own age! We get together and go to the movies or go round each other houses. I start taking the sacrement a few months back and I have never been happier. Now look what I've done today. I've ruined everything. I can't be friends with my friends because of what i really am. A disguisting animal. I shouldn't have let him in the house but he kept going on. i knew it was going to happen. Now I cant take the sacrement and I dont want to go through all the talking with my bishop again. I was working on paying my tithing for my patriachel blessing. Now whats the point. I wish every one would go away. I can't stop crying. I need some advice urgently.

Hemidakota · #2 (**permalink**) 07-22-2008, 01:26 PM

It is better serve that you revisit the Bishop immediately. Was the girl a member of the church? If so, then she should also seek the same. Also, seek a priesthood blessing for comfort and support. You will need it.

Brother, there is hope in all things but at this point, confessing is the right choice. Never give up....

SkyWishes · #3 (**permalink**) 07-22-2008, 01:33 PM

By the way Im a girl! And no he wasn't in the church. I want to be the good person. The lady not the animal. The animal is what they wanted me to be back when I was a teenager "they" as in men. I got away from that. I was doing well. Sacrement, friends, my own little home, even starting my education again but now it feels like it's all falling down. I can see I need to speak to the bishop now but I don't feel like i can I feel so lost

utcowboy · #4 (**permalink**) 07-22-2008, 01:36 PM

Visit with the bishop, you are not lost, you will return to where you want to be if you will apply yourself to the task. Go see your bishop..... we are hoping and praying for your success...

Hemidakota · #5 (**permalink**) 07-22-2008, 01:37 PM

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Originally Posted by SkyWishes

By the way Im a girl! And no he wasn't in the church. I want to be the good person. The lady not the animal. The animal is what they wanted me to be back when I was a teenager "they" as in men. I got away from that. I was doing well. Sacrement, friends, my own little home, even starting my education again but now it feels like it's all falling down. I can see I need to speak to the bishop now but I don't feel like i can I feel so lost

I apologize....however, do not give up. You are never lost.

SkyWishes · #6 (**permalink**) 07-22-2008, 01:41 PM

i was doing so well

but thanks for hearing me out ive made a very very BIG mistake today im so happy for the gospel and was good to write this down

richlittell · #7 (**permalink**) 07-22-2008, 01:43 PM

It's really amazing how much we all get scared to talk to the bishop about terrible things, but I've never met anyone who wasn't happy once they talked to the Bishop. You won't feel so terrible as you do now. The Bishop and the Holy Spirit will help you feel your true worth even though you have made a big mistake. And remember, even some of the greatest prophets of the church have made some terrible mistakes, but did Heavenly Father ever turn away from them? It's hard to imagine for you right now, but you will feel better, much better, after seeing your Bishop.

PapilioMemnon · #8 (**permalink**) 07-22-2008, 01:43 PM

Please, calm yourself down...
Remember,... your Bishop is your friend, not an enemy. He's there to help you!
I can understand your feelings, but you're still here, and seeking advice.... There's hope, there's ALWAYS hope!!! You're still here in this world! Even if you repeated the sin, DON"T GIVE UP!!!
I can't stress enough how important it is for you to seek your Bishop immediately! Sister, you need a Priesthood blessing!
Pray... talk to Father... He wants to hear from you... He wants also to help you... even if it's difficult to pray because of what happened,.... you must go to Him! He won't push you away... He would NEVER consider or call you an animal or disgusting.... you're a child of God; don't call yourselves those names.
Please pray... and let it out to Him... seek your Bishop ASAP!

Hemidakota · #9 (**permalink**) 07-22-2008, 01:47 PM

Do you remember Elder Paul H. Dunn? Here is an except he gave...

Never Give Up! - Paul H. Dunn

Hemidakota · #10 (**permalink**) 07-22-2008, 01:50 PM

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Originally Posted by richlittell

It's really amazing how much we all get scared to talk to the bishop about terrible things, but I've never met anyone who wasn't happy once they talked to the Bishop. You won't feel so terrible as you do now. The Bishop and the Holy Spirit will help you feel your true worth even though you have made a big mistake. And remember, even some of the greatest prophets of the church have made some terrible mistakes, but did Heavenly Father ever turn away from them? It's hard to imagine for you right now, but you will feel better, much better, after seeing your Bishop.

Excellent posting....leaders can be fallible but they don't give up.