I'm Giving Up

[Truegrits]

You know, Hoosier, just yesterday after reading one of your responses, I thought how much I liked your posts. I am sorry that I have not let you know that. I enjoy what you have to say, and often it coincides with my feelings.
I woke up today in a "funk"...do not know why. Just a down time, I guess. While everyone does need alone time, it is not healthy to totally withdraw from people or life. So, please do not disconnect; you have friends here that would love to listen to you, talk with you, help you get through this. My prayers and love are with you.

[pushka]

Hoosier Guy, I haven't posted much to you in the past but I still remember reading thru your first thread, about how you wanted to start coming to church, your first meeting with the Missionaries etc. I was just returning to the church at that time and I was so impressed by how well you were doing with reading the scriptures and what not.

I hope that you can overcome whatever sadness has caused you to feel so down and unloved, I hope that your family, friends, people you meet at church and on this site can help you to overcome those feelings..as others have said, we all have a need to vent sometimes, we all have times when we feel down, isolated or other bad feelings, share them with us and give us a chance to help heal you..

[pam]

We all have our days. We all have days we want to totally have a "poor pity me party." I have them quite often.

Hoosier I just adore you. To say no one would miss you..well..it's just not true.

I wish I had your spirit...your testimony of the gospel for one so newly baptized. You never ceased to amaze me.

[HoosierGuy]

Thanks all. I'm feeling a little better. I was feeling good all week then Friday evening came and something set me off that made me very depressed. I'm ok. I wasn't ok last night but I'm feeling better now.

[pushka]

Yay!! Glad to hear you're feeling better..try to contact us as soon as you feel low next time, perhaps we can help you get over it a little quicker

[pam]

Yeh...what Pushka said.

[candyprpl]

I feel for you Hoosier!!

All my life I suffered with severe depression. I got to a point in my life where I was convinced no one needed me, my kids (grown) were so messed up and didn't want my help, and I certainly didn't feel like I had anything to offer this world. I KNEW I wouldn't be missed. I tried hard to end my life -- I should have died -- Heavenly Father had other plans for me. Heavenly Father sent angels (my sisters) to my side and showed me how much I was loved. My sisters who have been members for a very long time arranged a Priesthood blessing for me. I felt Jesus' love for me and discovered my worth. What a blessing!! The last 4 years since my baptism have been filled with much healing, both of my spirit and my mind. I haven't been on any depression medication since baptism.

Are all my days rosy? No, but I know I'm loved and that was what was missing all those years. I am a child of God had become just a nice phrase somewhere along the way. When I realized the full meaning of that phrase it made all the difference in my life.

Heavenly Father loves you!!! He sent his only Begotten -- the plan of salvation -- because He loves YOU! Are you worth it? ABSOLUTELY!!!

A sidenote -- after my baptism, I fasted and prayed for my children and put their names in at the Temple -- they are both doing great these days. Blessings!

[WillowTheWhisp]

Hoosier I haven't been on here for a while but I have enjoyed your posts in the past and felt so uplifted by your spirit. This evening I have been doing my last minute studyiing of the lesson I'm teaching tomorrow and one point which jumped out at me from the lesson when I read your first post in this thread was how Satan tries to convince us that we are unworthy and tries to separate us from Heavenly Father's love. When we feel really low he gets in there and works on us. Sometimes others around us see a perfectly happy individual who may be falling apart inside.

[HoosierGuy]

Yeah, I feel ok. I've realized that when I feel bad and depressed, I feel like giving up. When I say to myself - "I give up", then my mind and soul stops fighting sinful temptations. I think Satan wants me to feel depressed so that I will stop fighting sinful temptations.

I guess I'm in a big battle with Satan. I know Heavenly Father and Jesus are on my side and with me always.

[Iggy]

Originally Posted by HoosierGuy

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I guess I'm in a big battle with Satan. I know Heavenly Father and Jesus are on my side and with me always.

Satan lost you to the other team and it has him really pissed. That is what I tell myself when I get hit with the Why Me, and the Is It All Really Worth It's?

I rejoined the other team - the Lord's team for a reason. For those days when it is really hard for me to remember the reasons - I bought myself a CTR ring. NOW, I can look at it and the Reasons are clearer.

Glad to hear you are doing better - These blindsides from satan will continue for a while. Eventually they will slow to a mere trickle as your spiritual strength increases. Once you are aware of where they come from, you will find that it is easier to shuck it off.

Hoosier- when you feel this way again. Kneel in prayer and in the name of Jesus Christ, banish it from you. You have that power- it is the gift of the Holy Ghost. Banish the adversary from you - if you don't feel comfortable doing this, then get on the phone, call your EQ president, church buddies, missionaries, and/or Bishop and tell them you need a blessing to banish the adversary - STAT.

We love you, you are our brother in Christ. Like Pushka said, let us all know sooner and we will rally round you and carry you if need be.