I'm Giving Up

HoosierGuy · #1 (**permalink**) 09-27-2008, 03:04 AM

I can't take this anymore. I'm giving up. No, I'm not leaving the Church or stop going to services. I'm giving up on something else.

If I disappeared off the face of the earth I doubt anybody would notice. So, why not disappear? It would probably make some people happy anyway!

President Monson said - ... As we survey the challenges of life, that which is easy is rarely right. In fact, the course that we should properly follow appears at times impossible, impenetrable, hopeless.”

Impossible? Yep. Impenetrable? Oh yes. Hopeless? Seems so. But at least I'm not lonely. Oh wait, I am!

I think the Circus will go on without me. I doubt if any of the performers would miss me. I doubt if the audience would miss me. Maybe the paymaster would miss me. Then again, he would probably say - "I'm glad he's gone. He was nothing but a whiner anyway. Not worth his check."

Maybe the lions would miss me - they always look at me as a possible future meal. Then again - out of sight out of mind; and that is so true.

And it is true for me, unfortunately - out of sight, out of mind. And the world keeps going on.

Yep. I'm not in a good mood. I feel horrible. More horrible than you know. And the above is the best I can say right now. But if anybody wants to knock me upside the head with a sledgehammer, feel free to do it. Out of sight, out of mind.

Sorry for the negative post.

Gwen · #2 (**permalink**) 09-27-2008, 03:12 AM

np, everyone needs to vent sometime.

RainofGold · #3 (**permalink**) 09-27-2008, 03:30 AM

I am sorry that you are in so much pain and feel so lonely. If you need someone to listen to you can count on me

....

Rain

WANDERER · #4 (**permalink**) 09-27-2008, 04:17 AM

Hoosier...you're my hero. You seize the day...I just talk a lot : ) .

Iggy · #5 (**permalink**) 09-27-2008, 04:23 AM

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Originally Posted by HoosierGuy

I can't take this anymore. I'm giving up. No, I'm not leaving the Church or stop going to services. I'm giving up on something else.

If I disappeared off the face of the earth I doubt anybody would notice. So, why not disappear? It would probably make some people happy anyway!

President Monson said - ... As we survey the challenges of life, that which is easy is rarely right. In fact, the course that we should properly follow appears at times impossible, impenetrable, hopeless.”

Impossible? Yep. Impenetrable? Oh yes. Hopeless? Seems so. But at least I'm not lonely. Oh wait, I am!

I think the Circus will go on without me. I doubt if any of the performers would miss me. I doubt if the audience would miss me. Maybe the paymaster would miss me. Then again, he would probably say - "I'm glad he's gone. He was nothing but a whiner anyway. Not worth his check."

Maybe the lions would miss me - they always look at me as a possible future meal. Then again - out of sight out of mind; and that is so true.

And it is true for me, unfortunately - out of sight, out of mind. And the world keeps going on.

Yep. I'm not in a good mood. I feel horrible. More horrible than you know. And the above is the best I can say right now. But if anybody wants to knock me upside the head with a sledgehammer, feel free to do it. Out of sight, out of mind.

Sorry for the negative post.

I would notice and I would miss you. So would a lot of others too- and not just from this forum either.

It is good to vent- this is a good place to do it too- nearly everyone here has good strong shoulders to lift you up.

{{{{{huggers}}}}}

tomk · #6 (**permalink**) 09-27-2008, 07:44 AM

Hoosier:

What brought this on? Are you feeling better now?

I assure you, you are not alone. Feeling alone does not mean you ARE alone. It means you perceive yourself to be isolated in some fashion, or have isolated yourself in some fashion. But perceptions can be incorrect.

The Lord understands what we are going through. Go to Him. Talk to Him as you would your Best Friend. Suprisingly, this is difficult for many people to do. I include myself in this. We grow up with so many "false traditions" concerning Christ...what kind of Being He really is!!!

In many instances, the Lord is the ONLY Person who understands what we are going through!

In other words,

2 Ne. 4: 34 O Lord, I have trusted in thee, and I will trust in thee forever. I will not put my trust in the arm of flesh; for I know that cursed is he that putteth his trust in the arm of flesh. Yea, cursed is he that putteth his trust in man or maketh flesh his arm.

Jer. 17: 5 Thus saith the Lord; Cursed be the man that trusteth in man, and maketh flesh his arm, and whose heart departeth from the Lord.

2 Ne. 28: 31 Cursed is he that putteth his trust in man, or maketh flesh his arm, or shall hearken unto the precepts of men, save their precepts shall be given by the power of the Holy Ghost.

What these verses are saying is -- relying on other people to give you comfort or peace or guidance will result in our being disappointed in some fashion!! Why? Because they are not God. They cannot see into our true hearts and know how to meet our actual needs -- needs that may be hidden from even ourselves. But God, who made us, knows the thoughts and intents of the heart! He knows just how to succor us (render aid) according to our needs and wants. But we need to be open-minded. We need to be patient. And we need to be obedient to the counsel we receive and grateful for it.

I hope you find yourself in better spirits today.

MorningStar · #7 (**permalink**) 09-27-2008, 08:01 AM

I guarantee people would be devastated if you were gone. A loved one of mine gets very, very lonely and she was blown away at the birthday tribute I wrote for her. She had no idea I admired her in so many ways, but that's how everyone feels about her! It's hard to see sometimes all our wonderful qualities, but we all have them. No one can replace you. Everyone I have lost in some way has left a space that can't be filled and that's how unique everyone is.

You have me worried. Please don't give up. Maybe a blessing would help you right now? Those help me so much during my worst times.

Nappaljarri · #8 (**permalink**) 09-27-2008, 08:04 AM

You know what our mothers say. I'll give you something to cry about.... "smack". Well there's one for you Hoosier..

Hope you are feeling loved now!!!

Wingnut · #9 (**permalink**) 09-27-2008, 08:24 AM

*smacks HoosierGuy upside the head with a sledgehammer*

Now here's an aspirin for the headache. Feeling better?

DON'T GO! You're fun in chat, and you "get" sarcasm. Not that I'm sarcastic or anything...

countrygirl66 · #10 (**permalink**) 09-27-2008, 08:55 AM

hi hoosier
Please keep writing. I have been in a dark place myself lately, writing those feelings can help you get through it. You may feel that noone would miss you, but have you thought that heavenly father has you where you are for a reason and he would miss you help and talants that only you have. I have really, really challenging neighbors on either side of me and somethimes think why couldn't i just have had neighbors that were low maintanence. But we are told to grow where we are planted sometimes the soil isn't very good and the circimstances are difficult. You have something to offer that you may not even be aware of. Keep writing your feelings it does help. Take care.