Please pray for me.

MissyP · #1 (**permalink**) 07-19-2009, 03:01 AM

My name is Brittany. I am 20 years old. I don't have a terminal illness, and my problems seem rather insignificant compared to the other problems in the board,but I need some encouragement.

I've been severely depressed since March. I have sinned in my past (several years ago), I confessed the sin appropriately, as soon as it happened, and I've gone through the repentence process and I made peace with it. Because of my anxiety, or some other trigger I have become very depressed over my past. Perhaps it's been my faliure to finish high school, I don't know, but my past has haunted me since that one memorable night in March. I have no idea what the actual Trigger was, I was watching Everybody Loves Raymond.

Anyways, I'm hoping that someone here will pray for me. Pray that I can feel the hope I once did and that I can recognize the comfort from the spirit and not let me anxiety get the best of me. Pray that I can stop worrying, that I can enjoy my life again.

I would also like prayers for something else. It's hard for me to explain what I mean. I know the plan of salvation, and I know how Physical Death plays a part in it. I know this, yet I can't handle it. I've cried for years about my grandparents death, about my mother's death, about my friend's death, literally years.

They are not dead yet.

Pray that I can better appreciate the beauty of not only the plan, but our life on earth as well.

Pray for my mental well being, I wonder if I will drive myself crazy soon.

Thank you, I know that there is a high demand for prayers in the world, and that I am actually asking for quite a bit, but I believe it will really help me.

Jenniguin · #2 (**permalink**) 07-19-2009, 04:34 AM

I'm happy to keep you in my prayers. I've been there. Depression is such a difficult thing to deal with. I actually had a point in my life where I was jealous of a friend who got institutionalized. I wanted to be there. I felt like I was going crazy. I still have my moments but as a very good friend once told me, if you ever have to wonder if you might be going crazy, you're probably not. It's normal to feel that way, and I pray that you'll receive the comfort you need to be ok with yourself, your feelings, and know that you'll be ok. It's ok to be sad. It is. But dwelling on things beyond our control doesn't do you any bit of good. Have the feeling, acknowledge it, accept it, and move forward.

Hope that helps some,

-Jenny

MorningStar · #3 (**permalink**) 07-19-2009, 08:46 AM

I'm so sorry you're struggling with that. I will pray for you. Have you read Believing Christ? I recommend it.

Dr T · #4 (**permalink**) 07-19-2009, 10:37 AM

Welcome Missy

Pray, done.

MissyP · #5 (**permalink**) 07-19-2009, 03:11 PM

Thank you everyone. I really do appreciate your thoughts and prayers more then I'll be able to express here. I feel more uplifted right now than I have in a long time, and even if it's for a brief few moments...I have a greater faith now that Heavenly Father will not leave me like this, I just have to keep trying and have faith. It's easy to say those things in your head, but certainly it's more encouraging to have the feeling again.Thank You.

Heavenguard · #6 (**permalink**) 07-20-2009, 10:53 PM

Depression might not be a terminal illness, but depression can sure feel like one. It can be harder to fight against than a physical ailment, because it's an ailment of one's heart, soul, and very being. I've personally been having a hard time with praying myself due to similar problems. But because of that, I know it helps to know that there are people who understand, and I certainly sympathize.

Hemidakota · #7 (**permalink**) 07-21-2009, 02:38 PM

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Originally Posted by MissyP

My name is Brittany. I am 20 years old. I don't have a terminal illness, and my problems seem rather insignificant compared to the other problems in the board,but I need some encouragement.

I've been severely depressed since March. I have sinned in my past (several years ago), I confessed the sin appropriately, as soon as it happened, and I've gone through the repentence process and I made peace with it. Because of my anxiety, or some other trigger I have become very depressed over my past. Perhaps it's been my faliure to finish high school, I don't know, but my past has haunted me since that one memorable night in March. I have no idea what the actual Trigger was, I was watching Everybody Loves Raymond.

Anyways, I'm hoping that someone here will pray for me. Pray that I can feel the hope I once did and that I can recognize the comfort from the spirit and not let me anxiety get the best of me. Pray that I can stop worrying, that I can enjoy my life again.

I would also like prayers for something else. It's hard for me to explain what I mean. I know the plan of salvation, and I know how Physical Death plays a part in it. I know this, yet I can't handle it. I've cried for years about my grandparents death, about my mother's death, about my friend's death, literally years.

They are not dead yet.

Pray that I can better appreciate the beauty of not only the plan, but our life on earth as well.

Pray for my mental well being, I wonder if I will drive myself crazy soon.

Thank you, I know that there is a high demand for prayers in the world, and that I am actually asking for quite a bit, but I believe it will really help me.

My dear sister, this was a subject I spoke about two weeks ago on this forum when I attended a stake priesthood session. I posted about a precious moment when a member had a confirmation on past forgiveness but felt the personal standing inadequacy if he was forgiven or not. Let me assure you, the Lord made it known doing a song to that individual, the sins were forgiven and He stated to him, He knew his weaknesses, support him in his quest for repentance, and stated His love for him. This was done by voice. When this happen, you always ask if he received the Holy Ghost as a confirmation when the event occurred. It did. Now the reason I posted this, it is clear indication on how we feel is not always how the Savior feels about our past. The plus here? You are great in His eyes...

Now go forth and have faith in yourself in seeking a personal divine communica from the Godhead. You will find that peace you are seeking for.

StallionMcBeastly · #8 (**permalink**) 07-24-2009, 12:11 PM

Will do

MissyP · #9 (**permalink**) 07-24-2009, 01:55 PM

Thank you everyone. I've been feeling much better since I've had your prayers. Your words have been wonderful, I have read what everyone has said, and I really do appreciate each and every comment. I am confident that until I am able to get some help on my own, Heavenly Father will continue to help me (and beyond then, too). Thank you for your support, and your guidance, I have been very blessed.