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VIEW PERSONAL BELIEFS
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POSTED BY:
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Hemidakota
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DATE:
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19.11.2008 |
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SUBJECT:
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Spirit attends [updated] |
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LOCATION:
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San Diego County,
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D&C 29:43 And thus did I, the Lord God, appoint unto man the days of his probation—that by his natural death he might be raised in immortality unto eternal life, even as many as would believe;
Our probationary appointment conclusion comes swiftly for some and others, come later when we finally accomplished the will of the FATHER and HIS Son in our mortal assignments.
This day, 1 July 2008, I usually will feel the Spirit maybe once in a day to let me know, He is there, or to give instruction. But this day, I am astonished that it has been on & off the whole day. I cannot even tell you how many tears flowed from my eyes throughout this day. I cannot even begin to express my gratitude for this moment – The Holy Ghost - for such a wonderful friend who comes and gives me hope to keep going. Even now as I write this, He is here…I feel His presence…I feel His love….I feel His glory. I am deeply emotionally drained.
It is hard for me to continue on as we see across a thinning veil. When a person felt the ‘Fullness of the Spirit’, conversing this moment is not easy to do. Such feelings become difficult for a person to keep plugging along in mortality. I cannot begin to fathom what it was like for my friend – Joseph Smith – in seeing so much and walked that ‘razor edge’ with many of the Great and Noble ones. It must have been such a torment for Joseph to know, three years out, his time was coming to return home to that which gave him life. It was his desire to be with the Saints for moment longer but it was time for him to come home. Looking back at a dream, I still can hear the words:
“Here cometh the Apostle of the Lamb” shouted an angel”
It is hard for me sitting here staring at both, the Savior and Joseph’s images, next to my computer today. “When Father? When will it be?” As the body begins its final physical digression, the spirit begins to grow and yearn to return to that source of which created life. It is becoming a burden to live another day…yet my life reflection today is holding my companion in my arms while looking into her eyes, which gives me relief of our soon-to-be eternal progression together. I could visualize today, when I come home, her beaming smiles warms my soul, her conversation on accomplishments of the home gives me hope, her nudge as we playfully push each as kids gives me joy, her laughter gives me hope in pushing forward with another day in this life.
I am grateful for my dearest elder brother, who seems to find time in His eternal busy schedule to make His presence known. I am grateful for my Heavenly Parents, who would ensure my success in this life is complete. I am lost without my eternal companion. I am lost without them all.
Tomorrow will be another day…another day to be influencer for my brothers and sisters and for my enemies, whom I want to ensure their success in returning back home with me. That home, those mansions, our friends and eternal family, which awaits us. More tears…more tears as I look at the fading light.
“I am with you always”….the silent voice whispers.
Edited: Well, that night after writing this, I did have a cardiac arrest and was taken to the local hospital. My life was spared due to the attunement of a local bishopric member of my local ward who decided for unknown reason [more like the spirit was involved] to remain dress and wait by the door for something to happen. He confides to my wife, for unknown reason that time of night [10:30PM], he is usually in bed and sleep but he felt something was not right and decided against going to bed; even having his house keys next to him. Well, my son being prompt immediately ran to his house when I stopped breathing to find him standing there ready to go. He immediately came to my house and confirms a priesthood blessing that I will live to make it to the hospital. What I did feel was a release of pain and could breathe again. Here is another classic example of power beyond the veil testimony of the priesthood power and those who use it righteously.
I live another day….:)
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