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VIEW PERSONAL BELIEFS
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POSTED BY:
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MormonGirl94
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DATE:
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01.12.2008 |
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SUBJECT:
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Falling away from the church |
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LOCATION:
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Ogden, Utah, United States
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When I was younger the last thing I ever wanted to do was go to church. But somehow I always ended up at church because of my parents. Once I was there I always tried to make the best of it, I tried to listen and sang a little bit. I had a rough time when I was younger. I always "flip flopped" on whether or not I knew the church was true. For a while I just stopped going, I felt emptiness inside of me when I did attend church or partake of the sacrament. I had and still have this really good friend named MacKenzie. She was in my ward and she also went to school with me. She was always nice to me whether I went to church or not. I'm still not quite sure what she said, but somehow she convinced to start attending church again. Although I still didn't go every week, I started to go more and more often. Then came time for me to go to middle school. Like every other school year, I tried to meet some new friends. I met a girl named Amanda, she seemed real nice. I heard her talking to her friend about how she was in Young Womens. So I decided to go talk to her. I said that I didn't know she was twelve. And she responded asking what religion I was. I told her that I was Mormon and she said she was as well. I then showed her my Choose The Right bracelet I happened to be wearing (ironically). She never asked whether I went to church every week or not, she was real cool about it. Whenever I was around her, I felt of her spirit and she was making me stronger by being an example. I remember one day I was in Sunday School thinking about how much I didn't want to be there, then popped into my mind Amanda's example and at that moment I knew that I needed to start attending weekly instead of every once in a while. It was a long process of repentance and change, but I knew that I could do it. After all of that I still just believed the church to be true, but I didn't know for myself and I knew that that was what I needed to do. So when I was at my first of Girl's Camp we were sitting around the campfire reading our scriptures, the spirit was so strong. I don't know how it came about, but somehow I ended up reading one of my favorite scriptures for the group. I read James 1:5 and I am sure you all know that one buy now. I then knew that I could go to my heavenly father for anything! That was the moment I knew for myself the church was true.
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