What is the single largest item in your house?
me. lol j/k. umm...my bed
How well can you write your name with your non dominant hand?
not too bad. might take an hour, but not too bad
What color is your bedroom?
ugly color
What type of computer mouse do you use?
a dell one on my desktop and none on my laptop
What is your earliest memory?
back in idaho. my huge bed. so that was like...when i was 2?
Have you ever jumped off of a high dive?
eeeep no!!!
Do you take vitamins?
nope i do not. but i drink vitamin supplimented aquafina juice. sometimes. mmm
When did you first become interested in sex?
when i was....18 lol
Do you like to color inside the lines?
yeah i'm pretty anal about that. one time in kindergarten i missed recess cause i wasn't done coloring my picture yet.
What do you have set as your home page?
can't remember on my laptop, and telus homepage on my desktop
Do you have your own radio?
i have a few.
Where would you hate to have to work?
in a factory
Who is on your speed dial?
mumsy...cause she changes her phone number way too often for me to remember it.
Do you prefer lightbulbs or candles?
light bulbs, but candles smell pretty
How much money did you spend today?
almost 200 bucks. got a new cell phone and minutes for it.
What are you sitting on right now?
my bed
Do you look at yourself when you pass by reflective surfaces?
i usually don't even look in the mirror before i walk out the door for work.
Would you ever get plastic surgery?
perhaps
Did you play with shaving cream when you were a kid?
no, no i did not
How big is your bed?
umm...double.
Do you like the smell of axe?
never smelled it before
What is your favorite flavor of lifesavers?
butter rum. mmmmm
Have you ever seen a volcano?
yeh, the one in rexburg. ooooo
What is the best halloween costume you have ever worn?
i made a witch costume out of garbage bags. got the idea in a martha stewart magazine. did up my makeup, had a wig, striped socks, tall high heels. you could barely recognize me. it was awesome.
What kind of soap do you use?
this coconut stuff from Lush
Can you snowboard?
never tried
How many icons do you have on your dekstop?
like 5 or 6
What is the biggest amount of money you have ever had at one time?
in cash or in my bank account? in my bank account like...2000. in cash. maybe 200?
Do you understand how telephones work?
i can understand ones with cords. but cordless and cells, no idea.
Do you write notes on your body?
i write in my hands all the time, especially at work.
What is the prominent color in your closet?
black or white, cause i need those colors for work shirts
What is sitting next to you right now?
my ipod, cell, remote, and home phone
Do you believe in lots of conspiracies?
conspiracies are a waste of time. just like this quiz is.
Do you own any really old video game systems?
just an orange n64
Are you good at baking?
i'm awesome at it
Have you ever made your own clothing?
i made a poodle skirt, and some bonnets for trek
How many doors does your house have?
the sliding door, the front door, the basement door and 3 other doors
Do you prefer tootsie pops or blow pops?
tootsie mmmm
Do you sneak into movie theatres?
nopers
Are you a really fast text messager?
i used to be. we'll see how well i do on my new cell lol
Do you have anything you keep on you 24/7?
nope
Do you usually write in print or in cursive?
a little of both
What was your first job?
besides babysitting...i worked for a teacher at the elementary school as an assistant, marking papers n such. after that it was an ice cream scooper
Do you prefer crushed ice or cubed?
cubes. unless it's party punch
What print is on your plates or cups in your kitchen?
they kinda look picnicy
Have you ever made a mixed cd for someone?
yeh, for my mom
What do you want to buy from an infomercial?
a magic bullet yeah!!!!
Do you believe that animals have souls?
yes!!!
What word/phrase do you find really annoying?
uh....i dunno
Do you have a lava lamp or a black light?
i have a lava lamp. yay
Do you find yourself not having enough electrical outlets?
nope
What is the longest you can wait patiently?
depends what i am waiting for.
Have you ever been under anesthesia?
yeah when i got my wisdom teeth out
Are your fingernails long or short?
medium. i can't stand them too long
Are you afraid of bright colors?
uh...no. odd question.
Has anyone ever accused you of being gay?
haha, yeah, i have 2 friends that are a couple....2 engaged girls, and the 1 thinks i'm a lesbian.
Can you tell people honest things to their face?
i try.
Would you rather eat grits or oatmeal?
mmm oat meal
Do you own a kite?
yep. 2
Have you ever run down and up escalator or vice versa?
of course! who hasn't?!
What do you think of clothing for pets?
adorable depending on the pet
Do you tend to want things you cannot have?
yep....i want this survey to be over...and it's not
Is it true that you can be anything you want to be?
no....and i find it creepy that check wants to be a girl
Were your parents honest to you about serious things when you were little?
i don't remember.
Would you ever dye your hair purple?
sure!!!
Who do you think should play you in a movie?
uhm....no idea
Would you ever kill someone?
noooo
Do you prefer stripes or polka dots?
polka dots. stripes make you look faaaaat
Do you dot your is and cross your ts?
is this one of those double meaning questions?
Are you double jointed in any way?
not really
What kind of super power do you wish you had?
super hearing
Are you easily offended?
hahahahaha no
How often do you watch the news?
i don't. unless it's by accident
.
Do you have nightmares very much?
every now and again
.
Which power ranger was your favorite?
i never watched them
Did the movie Jaws ever scare you?
never watched them
Have you ever cried to get away with something?
heh, i'm a girl. waht do you think?
What do you think of feminists?
grow up
Are you friends with anyone famous?
no but i'm friends with people who have famous friends.
Do you lack common sense sometimes?
hahaha...occassionally.
Are you afraid of snakes?
not really
Do you use recycle bins at your house?
heck no
How hot do you like the water in your shower?
i start out warmish, then slowly turn the cold water off
Do you ever walk around your house naked?
you bed. it's very....freeing
What is your favorite art form?
eh?
Do you want to be bilingual?
i try
Is energy wasted on little kids?
never!!!!
Do you lie to make people feel better?
i try not to
How many times a day do you look at the clock?
if i'm working...like every 20 minutes lol i have to, to know when to make coffee, when order windows open, when food expires....
Do you like to organize things?
at work. yes. at home. no.
Are you going to have smile lines or frown lines when youre older?
smile yes. frown, no.
Do you floss your teeth every day?
heh, no
Do you like the game red rover?
never did
Which is better, thick crust or thin?
depends on the pizza.
How good are you at keeping secrets?
not bad.
What stupid little thing really stresses you out?
monopoly. don't ask.
Can you remember what you wore yesterday?
oh yes. jeans, white shirt, smock. then jeans, green shirt. yaya
Which Disney parks have you been to?
world and land
What do you think the drinking age should be?
25
Do you like to wear socks?
i hate socks
What is the last cartoon you watched?
probably....recess or the weekenders. no wait. it was family guy
What does your bed comforter look like?
it's bluuuue and yellooooow and greeeen, and has flowers on the bottom of it
WOOHOO IT'S OVER!!!!!!
2007 IS COMING TO AN END
1. Have you had any relationships this year?
i have had many...just not any romantical relationships
2. Have you had your birthday yet?
I sure have
3. Cried yet?
oh goodness yes yes yes
4. Been on a diet?
in march i tried a new "life plan diet"...it lasted for 2 weeks til my shift changed
5. Pulled an all nighter?
i do believe that's what i'm doing now....and yes i have many times
6. Drank Starbucks?
i had my first starbucks ever this year. just the fruit frappuccino's though.
7. Went Camping?
sadly, no. but i wanted to
8. Bought something(s)?
i've bought many things
9. Met someone special?
i've met many special people
10. Been out of state?
yes i have. i went to utah in september
12. What are you thinking about?
this quiz....
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1.) Hugged someone?
i've hugged many people. i love hugs.
2.) Slept in someone elses bed?
ummm, yep. i slept in my moms bed a few times. and i slept on brite's air mattress. and i slept in a few hotel beds too lol.
3.) Got a job?
continued the job i've already had for 5 years. and actually got my 5 year necklace from work
4.) Loaned out money?
yep. like 20 bucks to kp for gas
5.) Gotten in a car accident?
not yet. *knock on wood*
6.) Gone over your mobile phone bill?
i have pay as you go....so no
7.) Been called a slut?
hahaha all the time. although they were joking.
8.) Done something you regret?
ummm *thinks*...not particularily
LAST :
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Last Person you hugged?
probably kp at work
Last Person to call you?
hahaha riot. he left a message on my machine cause i wouldn't answer. the dork.
When was the last time you felt stupid?
psh. all the time. but i just think it's funny now
Who did you last yell at?
ummm...probably someone stupid
What did you do today?
cleaned the house a bit
TEN FACTS :
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01. Name?
Becca
02. Natural hair color?
*points to her hair* it's finally natural and i LOVE it!!!
03. Initials?
RMM
04. Hair style?
longish and straight
5. Eye color?
hazel
06. Height:
5'5"
07. Pets:
a pet rock. lol j/k. a dog who lives with my mom.
08. Mood?
sleepy
09. Where would you rather be?
hangin out with someone
10. What was the last thing you drank?
lol some water with crystal lite lemon lime and crystal lite pink lemonade in it. i didn't have enough for just one flavor so i mixed the two
TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE:
01. Have you ever been in love:
yes
02. Do you believe in love?
i say no, but that's just so i don't get hurt
03. Why did your LAST relationship fail?
trust issues, distance
04. Have you ever been heartbroken:
yeppers
05. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
probably
06. Have you ever fallen for your best friend?
indeed i have
07. Have you ever liked someone but never told them?
allll the time
08. Are you afraid of commitment?
nope. just affraid of being hurt.
10. Have you had more than 5 different serious relationships in your life?
nope i have not
4 EMOTIONS
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01. Are you missing someone right now?
not relaly
02. Are you happy?
eh. sure
03. Are you eating anything?
nope
04. Do you like someone right now?
sure
now it's your turn. have fun with it (either post your own in your blog, or reply to my blog)
Enos 1:27 And I soon go to the place of my rest, which is with my Redeemer; for I know that in him I shall rest. And I rejoice in the day when my mortal shall put on immortality, and shall stand before him; then shall I see his face with pleasure, and he will say unto me: Come unto me, ye blessed, there is a place prepared for you in the mansions of my Father. Amen.
In August 1997, my Grandfather passed away. The circumstances of his passing were very hard on us. I was 16 years old at the time. I had just finished my 2nd year going to EFY. We left a night early because my oldest cousin was getting married. He was the first of the cousins to get married. Grandpa was unable to make it to the temple that day because his health was deteriorating.
He had been in the hospital for about a year. My Grandma was just unable to take care of him alone at home anymore, so they brought him to the hospital in my town, where he spent the final year of his life. I wish I could go back and change that year. I was a 15/16 year old girl, and the last thing on my list to do was go to visit my Grandpa. I almost resented him that year, because my mom spent more time with him than she did at home. She would spend every free moment that year with him. And now, I wish I would have done the same.
It was hard to see him in that state. He was the man I looked up to as a father figure for most of my life. But seeing him unable to do anything on his own was so hard. He couldn't walk, eat, shower, or even go to the bathroom on his own.
So that day of the wedding, was a day of happiness, and sorrow.
My family had planned to take a trip to Seattle at the end of that summer. We were going to be leaving right after the wedding. Upon hearing that my grandpa was ill, my mom wanted to cancel the trip. She knew that something was up, but everyone insisted that we go. So we did.
We gave our cell phone number to the family in case something were to happen. At about 5pm we pulled over at a tourist information centre in Washington State. They had just closed. We continued on our way, and late that night we pulled over to camp for the night. After we got our tents set up, my brother in his, me in mine, my mom went to check the cell phone for messages.
There was a message we received late on the phone. It was from my moms oldest brother. At about 5pm that evening, Grandpa passed away.
All I had heard from my tent was my mom screaming. Saying "I knew it I knew it I knew it". Thinking my mom and dad had just gotten into another argument, I made my way to the van to see what was going on. I don't even remember who told me about grandpa passing away. All I really remember from that night was my mom not being around, she had wandered off on her own. I remember my dad not really saying anything. He almost had a smug look on his face. And I remember my brother finding the scripture that is at the top of this entry.
That night, after I was told of the news, I silently went to my tent. I couldn't cry infront of my family. I had to be one of the strong ones. I went to my tent and I prayed. In my prayer I asked my Heavenly Father, if it was possible, for my Grandpa to give me one last hug. A feeling of comfort washed over me, and I knew that he was there with me that night.
We woke up early the next morning and left for home. We were about 10 hours away from home, but made it back in about 6 hours. Grandpa's funeral is the last time I remember the whole family being together. Everyone was there, except for my cousin and his wife. The older cousins all slept together in the tent trailer that night. There were about 9 of us. We did a lot that week. I didn't cry at all that week. I couldn't. I wouldn't let myself.
At our family get together the night before the funeral, everyone was saying their goodbyes to Grandpa. I couldn't. I wish I would have. I wish I could have touched him one last time. But I couldn't. I stayed as far away from the casket as I could. It was too hard to go close to it. I wish I could have said one last goodbye, but I know he is with me. I know he is watching over me. I have had a few dreams where it has been like he is there with me. My mom and my grandma have those dreams too. But the thing that makes me know for sure he is with me is the smell.
Every so often I'll walk by something, and it is so strong. It's not an every day smell. Not one of cologne or anything like that. Grandpa was a farmer. I don't know if it's a smell from the farm, but I'll smell it. And I'll just stop, and breathe it in. I'll take in the moment. Knowing that Grandpa is there, next to me.
This blog wasn't meant to be completely about my Grandpa. It was actually meant to be about friendship. As I was searching through my files from high school, I found a letter that Elder Maxwell wrote for my Grandma upon hearing of the passing of Grandpa. I read it over and paragraph struck me.
This struck me tonight for some reason. When I meet someone, if even for a short period of time, if there is a friendship there, I remember it forever. Even friends online. There are people I talked to 9 years ago, that I have lost contact with, and I still think about them. And some of them have returned and become friends again. Some, I'll never hear from again. But they are my friends nonetheless.
This has become a really really long blog. I guess that's what I get for blogging so late at night/early in the morning. But I just had so many thoughts running through my head that needed to be let out. So to all my friends, past, present, and future. Online and offline. Thank you. Thank you for finding me. I will never forget you. No matter how long you were a part of my life. Thank you.
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