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2009 will be fine.

I have hope that it will be. Even as it is only the second day of this new year, I have found both justice and mercy.  2008 was miserable. Although many good things happened, meeting new friends, sunshine, love and the gospel knowledge gained ( I read through the Book of Mormon on my own for the first time) it seems to me that we all had over our share of burdens, trauma and pain. I know that I sure did.  I cannot say it was my worst year, but it was pretty close to it.  (BTW, 1988 was my worst year. Was that also a leap year?)

Let me tell you about my first "2009 will be fine" experience for the year: Today I called about a bill I got for attorney fees. My son had gone to juvy in May. Sadly he should not have been there. The lawyer, the corrections officer, the deversion officer all said this child should never had come there.  He is disabled. In the lock up he had some wonderful conversations with the corrections officer, who told me over the phone that he is a polite, respectful boy, very pleasant but he doesn't have a clue why he is here. But once they are brought there, the ball is in motion... lock-up, trials, lawyers, and all has to occur.  Essentially one is guilty because they were brought there. And you have to work to prove other wise. Understanding that one even did something wrong, is irrelevant. So we went through a lot. And eventually they allowed that he not go on trial, because he didn't have a record they allowed him to do a few hours of community service and I paid a deversion fee.  Then in December I get a bill for $225. I call today and she said to expect another bill for a daily rate for being in lock-up.  Oh, my. I told her what had happened. And she said "I will cancel the fees."  There is mercy. I know it is the year. For if I had been able to reach them by phone back in December when I got the letter, I don't think it would have had the same outcome.

So there is hope where there is faith.  I have faith that 2009 will bring us all the peace and joy we need.

Tags: New Year Hope Faith

My brothers and sisters,

As I was looking at my page, and the blogs that I had posted, I noted the last one posted was about loosing love.  I reflect on that time, and consider how difficult it was, and still when I think about it, like when I see the places he and I went together, or pass the places that were part of what he did while he was here, I get this ache in my heart.  It is not a matter of wanting to be with this man, or even wanting him part of my life, it is just a matter of suffering yet another loss in my life.  I do still keep in contact with this man, an email or phone call every once in a while, and I know we will be better friends than we ever were spouses.

But that is not really what I am here to reflect upon, as the lost love is just that lost. As my blog title indicates what I want to present is about finding love. I did, in my lost love blog I made mention of having a joyful love in my life.  And that love continues to grow- best friends forever.

I find that when I cannot express what I need to in words, music reaches something closer to  celestial communication.  There is a song that he found that the words express really what I want to say here. If you get a chance and would like to hear the song, go on YouTube, and Rascal Flatts has a good version of this. 

I set out on a narrow way, many years ago.
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road.

But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign
Pointed straight to you.

Every long lost dream
Led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart
They were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way
Into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.

Yes HE did.

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you.
But you just smile and take my hand
You been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan
That is coming true.

Every long lost dream
Led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart
They were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way
Into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.

Now I am rolling home into my lover's arms
This much I know is true.

That God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you.
That God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you.



Angie

Tags: Friendship Love

My dear brothers and sisters,

 

Here I sit, in the middle of the night, wishing to distract myself from something that will occur in just a few hours.

 

Although I have suffered greatly with this man, my ex-husband, it is with sorrow that we part.  Today, he will be getting on a plane, and returning to his homeland. Will I ever see him again? I do not know. We have promised to call and email frequently. But never again will it be the same. In a few hours the hug and kiss I give him will really be Good-bye.

 

And no one really understands. My friends, family, ward members feel relief at his departure, and feel that I should be happy also. I am not.

 

I am full of sorrow, of a sense of loss, despite the fact that I have so many who love me. Including a man who loves me with an eternal love. A man I will marry and be sealed to. A man who I love beyond words to describe.

 

I know that I need to focus on my eternal love. And that will be what carries me through this sorrow. That and the comfort of a loving Father in Heaven, and the atonement given to me by the Savior.

 

Angie

Tags: Love Loss

My son  was speaking with a classmate today.  This classmate said that God, the Father; Christ and the Holy Ghost are all one being.

My son simply said, "Then who was Christ praying to in the garden?"

The other child had no response, other than a sheepish "Himself."

I am glad we know the true nature of God. I would find it very difficult to explain to my children that God is this mystical, floaty being with no form.  It is so much easier to understand the truth.

Tags: God-head Child

Here's is something that made me think. Although I am not one to watch much news or read the newspapers, and don't let the media lead me astray or form my opinions, I have heard a lot of negative things being said about how bad it is in America, from Americans mostly.  And this quote from David Letter, sums it up.  It really isn't about the campaign or the election (so hopefull it is okay to post), but it is about being thankful. Being thankful for many things that a lot of Americans take for granted.

David Letterman wrote this; it's the David we don’t often see...

"As most of you know I am not a President
Bush fan, nor have I ever been, but this is not
about Bush, it is about us, as Americans, and it
seems to hit the mark.”
‘The other day I was reading Newsweek
magazine and came across some Poll data I found rather hard to believe. It must be true given
the source, right?
The Newsweek poll alleges that 67
percent of Americans are unhappy with the
direction the country is headed and 69 percent of
the country is unhappy with the performance of
the President. In essence 2/3 of the citizenry
just ain't happy and want a change. So being the
knuckle dragger I am, I started thinking, 'What
are we so unhappy about?''


A.. Is it that we have electricity and
running water 24 hours a day, 7 days a week?


B.. Is our unhappiness the result of
having air conditioning in the summer and heating
in the winter?


C.. Could it be that 95.4 percent of
these unhappy folks have a job?


D.. Maybe it is the ability to walk
into a grocery store at any time and see more
food in moments than Darfur has seen in the last
year?


E.. Maybe it is the ability to drive our
cars and trucks from the Pacific Ocean to the
Atlantic Ocean without having to present
identification papers as we move through each
state?


F.. Or possibly the hundreds of clean
and safe motels we would find along the way that
can provide temporary shelter?


G.. I guess having thousands of
restaurants with varying cuisine from around the
world is just not good enough either.


H. Or could it be that when we wreck
our car, emergency workers show up and provide
services to help all and even send a helicopter
to take you to the hospital.


I.. Perhaps you are one of the 70
percent of Americans who own a home.

J.. You may be upset with knowing that
in the unfortunate case of a fire, a group of
trained firefighters will appear in moments and
use top notch equipment to extinguish the flames,
thus saving you, your family, and your
belongings.

K.. Or i f, while at home watching one
of your many flat screen TVs, a burglar or
prowler intrudes, an officer equipped with a gun
and a bullet-proof vest will come to defend you
and your family against attack or loss.

L.. This all in the backdrop of a
neighborhood free of bombs or militias raping and
pillaging the residents. Neighborhoods where
90% of teenagers own cell phones and computers.


M.. How about the complete religious,
social and political freedoms we enjoy that are
the envy of everyone in the world?


Maybe that is what has 67% of you folks
unhappy.


Fact is, we are the largest group of
ungrateful, spoiled brats the world has ever
seen. No wonder the world loves the U.S. , yet
has a great disdain for its citizens. They see
us for what we are. The most blessed people in
the world who do nothing but complain about what
we don't have, and what we hate about the country
instead of thanking the good Lord we live here.


I know, I know. What about the
president who took us into war and has no plan to
get us out? The president who has a measly 31
percent approval rating? Is this the same
president who guided the nation in the dark days
after 9/11? The president that cut taxes to
bring an economy out of recession? Could this
be the same guy who has been called every name in
the book for succeeding in keeping all the
spoiled ungrateful brats safe from terrorist
attacks? The commander in chief of an
all-volunteer army that is out there defending
you and me?


Did you hear how bad the President is
on the news or talk show? Did this news affect
you so much, make you so unhappy you couldn't
take a look around for yourself and see all the
good things and be glad? Think about
it......are you upset at the President because he
actually caused you personal pain OR is it
because the 'Media' told you he was failing to
ki ss your sorry ungrateful behind every day.
Make no mistake about it.


The troops in Iraq and Afghanistan have
volunteered to serve, and in many cases may have
died for your freedom. There is currently no
draft in this country. They didn't have to go.
They are able to refuse to go and end up with
either a ''general'' discharge, an “other than
honorable'' discharge or, worst case scenario, a
''dishonorable” ' discharge after a few days in
the brig.


So why then the flat-out discontentment
in the minds of 69 percent of Americans?


Say what you want but I blame it on the
media. If it bleeds it leads and they
specialize in bad news. Everybody will watch a
car crash with blood and guts How many will
watch kids selling lemonade at the corner? The
media knows this and media outlets are for-profit
corporations. They offer what sells, and when
criticized, try to defend their actions by
'justifying' them in one way or another Just ask
why they tried to allow a murderer like O.J.
Simpson to write a book about how he didn't kill
his wife, but if he did he would have done it
this way......Insane!


Turn off the TV, burn Newsweek, and use the New
York Times for the bottom of your bird cage.
Then start being grateful for all we have as
country. There is exponentially more good than
bad. We are among the most blessed people on
Earth and should thank God several times a day,
or at least be thankful and appreciative.' 'With
hurricanes, tornados, fires out of control, mud
slides, flooding, severe thunderstorms tearing up
the country from one end to another, and with the
threat of bird flu and terrorist attacks, 'Are we
sure this is a good time to take God out of the
Pledge of Allegiance?'
David Letterman

Tags: Greatful Thankful America

Today I learned through one of the members of our stake presidency's talk if you feel that another person has done something wrong you should try one of five things:

1) ignore the situation

2) hold off on doing anything, and perhaps the situation will be clearer to you later or the situation will change

3) talk to the person who you feel has done something wrong

4) talk to the person that is in a leadership position over the person you feel did something wrong

5) Pray to Father in Heaven to help this person, and to help yourself so that quite possibly you can have a more open view/better understanding.