Its been over a month since I was baptised, it was such a hard decision for me especially at the age of 15. My biologicale father said he didnt want anything more to do with me and called me very nasty names and I had so many doubts and even though it seemed easier not to get baptised I felt I wanted to and knew I wanted to. Since the day I got baptised I lost all contact with me dad, but things were great, I had all the support from Church Members and the Missionaries, it all just seemed to be going ockay. I began to think that I didnt need to grow up with a father, my mum, step father and brothers were enough, I didnt need him to keep bringing me back down and making me feel like dirt. A few weeks later everything gradually began to fall apart, Im struggling with school work and I feet a let down to my friends when I cant make it to partys, Im gradually getting less confident and keep telling myself I will never ever get married because no one will like me. I even cry to my mum saying I dont fit in at church because I dont understand things and everyone knows eachother, I just feel like I want to be on my own, why cant I worship on my own I keep asking people. On the day of my brother and step fathers baptism a letter came in the post, I just broke down in tears because I knew it was from my father, he said he missed me and wanted to see me. I dont know what to do with my dad or the church? Im just really confused and need advice, I have prayed to Heavenly Father, but I think its truly up to me to decide. Any advice?

Rebekah.

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