Untie The Ribbons

I have been thinking about how life goes. If you are lucky (by creating your own luck) life changes and evolves over time. People may come and go but something that never changes is the joy we hold in our heart formed by memories. I have chosen to finally accepted change, to embrace it and not be afraid to discover the new behind the next door that opens.

Today I went to see a movie with my daughter; who had the day off, and choose to spend it with me, her wonderful mother. We went to see the movie Julie & Julia which I really enjoyed except for the one unnecessary “F” bomb. I came home after lunch, movie and shopping with my beautiful daughter thinking about how much my life is changing. My life is changing and I am embracing these changes for the first time in many years. I figure that accepting these changes with empower me to make good choices everyday. All we have is today to make the best of, yesterday is the past, tomorrow is the future, but today is a gift, untie the ribbons.

oxoxoxo, SF

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Five years ago my son Nick was almost taken away from us in what is being called an accident. He was just 17 at the time working for a local tire shop when he was given a mis-match set of tire and wheel to mount, which is like a loaded bomb. The tire "false seated", or sealed and shot straight into the air after hitting the "launching pad" on the tire changing machine. The tire and rim first struck Nicks arm which he had the hand air gauge in bending in in half and breaking his arm before stricking Nick in the face and head. The tire and rim continued upward from the tyjectory busting the light system in the tire shop. The high ceiling finally stopped the tire and sent in downward still remaining intact. Nick was on the ground with his face split open... lifeless. He was life-flighted and spent a month in the hospital before coming home to begin years of relearning and years of rehab.

Five years later seems almost like a lifetime away from that day that we will never forget. Five years have taught us many many lessons as well, some good and some bad but we will never be the same people we were post "accident". In life we need to try to remember that we don't see the entire picture, we only get snippets and those need to be looked at over time. Time and these snippets have taught me that we don't need to have all of the answers right now and that men even though they present one side to the public will be judged by one who knows all. It is our responsibility to only live our lives in a way that we can be held accountable that in the end it is all we need to do to be truely happy and rejoice in the day of salvation.

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July 9, 2009
Walking Through
When Doors Open

When a door opens, walk through it. Trust that the door has opened for a
reason and you have been guided to it. Sometimes we have a tendency to
overanalyze or agonize over the decision, but it is quicker to simply go
through the door and discover what's there as that's the only way to know.
Even if it doesn't seem right at first, opening this door may lead to
another door that will take us where we need to go.

Doors open when the time is right for us to enter a new space,
metaphorically speaking, and we can have faith that walking through is the
right thing to do. Sometimes we linger in the threshold because we are
afraid of leaving our old life for a life we know nothing about. We may have
voices inside of our heads that try to hold us back or people in our lives
saying discouraging things. These voices, internal and external, are known
as threshold spirits, and they express all the fears and doubts that arise
at the beginning of a new life. Nevertheless, none of these voices can hold
us back, and they will fall silent as soon as we cross the threshold.

There are many doors that open in the course of our lives, leading us into
new relationships, jobs, friendships, and creative inspirations. Our lives
up to this point are the result of all the doors we have walked through, and
our continued growth depends on our willingness to keep moving into new
spaces. Every time we walk through an open door, we create a sense memory
that encourages us to move into the new fearlessly. When we enter the new
space, we almost always feel a thrill and a new feeling of confidence, in
ourselves and in the universe. We have stepped across the threshold into a
new life.

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I read the above article and felt I should share this. The past will always be a part of us but it is the future is FURURE!!!! haha

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Today I have a headache but things can only get better right>

I will be brief with this but felt I needed to document what happened yesterday.

FIRST the good news, Funkyfool made it to SLC and she is so ADORABLE!!!! She has a beautiful smile and a huge spirit. She met all but one member of my family her first day here. She was also very dear with us as we were going through something very difficult. Our 17 year old female Shitzu was in congestive heart failure and as a family we were suffering. We made an appointment with the vet for 3:30 to help her out of her suffering. I love my dogs like children and it is very quiet around here. I am glad FF is here and that Elphaba is on her way here, together they will be able to lift me out of my funk. I will greatly miss Peaches she too has been through so much with our family. I don't think we will be a dog owner again until we are too old to travel.

Thanks for listening.

Hugs, SF

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I found the words of the Christmas Song I was looking for. This is all I know about it so far.

Christmas Face

Dear mom, why are you not here?
Last year we said next year
We'd be gathered 'round the tree
But here I am

Dear dad, I miss you so much
Time has come between us
I miss the laughter of your smile
And your embrace

Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas
It doesn't feel the same
But it feels like California's
A million miles away
And I can't find my Cristmas Face

Dear Lori, someday you will fly
I know, but not this year
Dear Dan, without you it is not
A wonderful life
It's just another silent night

Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas
It doesn't feel the same
But it feels like California's
A million miles away
And I can't find my Cristmas Face

Without you here it's just another silent night

Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas
It doesn't feel the same
But it feels like California's
A million miles away
And I can't find my Cristmas Face

http://miseryland.altervista.org/christmas.htm

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Time for Change

Dear Friends,

I have decided to make some pretty dramatic changes in my life and felt I should let those of you who might wonder what happened to me know where I am. For almost five years I have been a member of a website LDS Talk which recently merged LDS Forums. I have learned so much since I first joined the site. I joined in 2003 after losing my mother to cancer within a month of her diagnosis. I came looking for friends I could let down my superficial guard down with. I was hurting really bad with the sudden death of my mom and was very vulnerable to the words of others. I had never been so closely exposed to people who hated the church as I did when I first joined the site. I got taken in as I listened to some of the things they told me which was not a good combination… hurt and vulnerable. My faith was shaken as I looked into the things that I was told about the church that I loved so much and I was very confused. My oldest son got married to a very sweet girl in June of 2004. Then about a month later, I had the phone call that every parent dreads, “Your child has been hurt real bad can you hurry and get here?” My then 17-year-old son who was working at a tire shop had a tire explode in his face and was life flighted to our local trauma unit. He has in a coma for many days and some of the people I met here where my greatest support team and I could feel the prayers from all over the world. My son has gone though years of therapy, surgeries, and rehab and many have followed us through that journey as well. In 2006 I took my 17-year-old daughter and moved four hours away in a second home, away from my husband and son in order to help her onto a new path and better friends. The accident and rehab of our son had taken a toll on our entire family and it was now my daughter who was at risk. In 2007 she graduated from high school and we again moved back into our primary home with my husband and son, we were all together again doing well. My father had been diagnosed with cancer in 1999 but had been doing fairly well with radiation ect. but in Oct. 2007 we learned that he only had six months to live. I knew I didn’t want to have the same regrets of not spending enough time with my dad that I did with my mom I decided to make myself available to what ever his needs were. Beginning in Feb. 2008 my fathers’ condition began changing rapidly and we became more alarmed. We spent more than a few long visits to the ER trying to find something to make my father better. During this entire time my father did not complain... he was ever the optimist. I learned so much from those final months I was blessed to be with my father. I will be eternally grateful that I had the freedom I had to give so much time and service to my father, he passed away peacefully on April 28, 2008.

I have asked to be relieved of my responsibilities as a moderator at this site. I have learned so many things from my years here on the Internet. I have learned what doesn’t kill you can make you stronger. I have learned how it important it is to live everyday as though it were your last. I have learned how important it is to share your self with others. I have prayed for answers in my life and I believe that I need to move into another phase of my life. I feel like I have been awakened to something important that I need to act on. I will still be a member of this site and hopefully will still enjoy the friendships I have made here. I am so grateful to Heather for first developing her open concept which has kept this unique website thriving on the Internet. I will treasure the things I have learned in your company and I hold your friendships dear. I will not be far away and I plan to visit often so if I can help you don’t hesitate to call on me. I will tell you that my family actually cheered when I told them of my new plans to spend less time on the Internet. I have learned to stop while people still want more.

Thanks for everything.

Yours truly, Strawberry Fields

Remember our trials do not define us; they refine us.

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Give Me Wings and Let Me Fly.

Yesterday was an active day. I was my oldest sons birthday. It was the first day Elphie can to my house. I was the day I opened the “Birdhouse Condo” (BBQ) and showed Elphie our houseguests. When I opened the lid I was very surprised to only see two of the three baby birds I had been following so closely. I had a few words with the two babies who remained in the “condo”. They took a good look at me, and one by one they flew off. Wow I was both exciting and sad to see them go. Everything has a purpose, a time and a season. My husband was the one who unselfishly gave up our BBQ Grill so that these birds could be born and grow their feathers. I have journaled their progress in snapshots. Now they are ready for a new part of their life to begin. I will miss knowing that those babies are out there in the home we let them take over. Now I will look to the sky to see them. There are not gone, just moved on.

After a bunch of cleaning and smoking the grill should be ready for this weekend.

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The story of the Invasion

Around the 20^th of March we noticed some birds landing on the shelves to our BBQ and then going inside through the vent holes. When we opened it up we saw three birds in there building a nest. I was ready to BBQ and said to my hubby that we should move this nest. He spoke very plainly and said we can’t do that, they are preparing for their eggs. I knew he was right but I didn’t feel the same about burgers cooked inside. lol

Over the next few weeks we have taken a lot of joy in these birds. The sites of them constantly feeding these birds have been such a fun thing for our family to watch. We look at them about every other day but listen to them through of window that is right next to the BBQ. This could not have come at a better time, seeing new life and being able to journal it through pictures. I hope you enjoy the pictures I have been adding to my slideshow. They are growing so fast I can’t believe it will be long before they are able to fly as well.

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Today my father, hero, and friend went to join my mother, brother and others who have gone on before us. It is a sad but happy day. Sad, for those who will miss my father so much my children are in so much pain. Happy for my dad and others he has been reunited with. No longer is my dad in pain from cancer. He is again dancing with my mother, oh how they loved to dance. This will hit me harder in the coming weeks but for now I have much work to be do. Thank you for all of your loving support.

Hugs, SF

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