A month ago, my ex-boyfriend sent me an instant message telling me about his newfound love. Though it has been more than a year since we broke up, I somehow felt lost for a while. Not that I wanted him back, but it made me see my present status-- so busy with work, church and school, and no time nor opporunity to date.

I have a crazy schedule where i fit a full time job, a full load of law subjects, and 9 church callings. Sometimes, I think maybe I'm too busy that I am missing a lot in life. And it's not the first time I asked myself whether I need to slow down.

I have a sister who got married when she was 22. Her life now is very much different from mine. I only come home during weekends and I stay there for barely a few hours because of my other responsibilities while she stays home the whole time.

Most people see me as an achiever considering my age, my educational attainment and my job. But in the church, I cannot escape the impression that I do not have balanced goals. Some members think that my idea of happiness is limited to secular recognition. And maybe, it is one of the reasons why I scare away men.

I do dream of getting married in the temple with someone who will help me raise an eternal family. However, I think that there is nothing wrong with making the most of my time while waiting for that break.

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