When I look back, i notice that God plan my life perfectly, and every people that comes my way  play a part of it. even i met them for only one day. I remember one of the seventy's talk that God always send His trusted friend to answer prayers. He always send me His trusted friend. and i can easily recognize them because they are the perfect person that fills what i need. He sent them to me, on time. God never been late in sending those people to me. When my husband died, even im mourning at the back of my mind this still small voice are telling me not to worry because theres someone prepared for me. and im like, why are you preparing someone for me, I need my husband and he is the one i want. and i kept on ignoring that small voice.Then comes, the hardest part in my life.being a  widow. im crying and pleading to God that i need a husband, I need someone who will help me in my struggles, and i even describe the man that i need, But heres the answer, I need to go back in a place where i and my late husband live when he was still alive.Its a strong feeling, I wonder why, but i know i will find out the answer if i follow that feeling. Everybody, all the people around me are telling and questioning me for going back there, no ones agree with me, but i need to go back there. thats what i feel i need to know why, or im going to regret it. I dont have money for that, my budget is so short for another expenses, but i need to take my chances and trust God, because I know thats what He wants me to do...its funny somtimes that the hindrance of what God is telling me is the people who are very close to me. who are very dear to me. the people that i dont want to be disappointed....coz if i disappoint them, maybe they will turn their back on me coz they are the only one i've got. i gained a lot of courage to kick against the pricks and do what that still small voice said. so i went back there, I need to go back there alone, and left the kids with my Mom, Its always like that. when you follow God's commandments its not easy, but He says, I never said it would be easy, I only said it would be worth it. I cried every night when i was in Quezon, I miss the children so much, and thinking of the next things i need to do in that place, i went back to my husband resting place and talk to him, and said goodbye too, i let myself go...because my late husband already told me to go with my life and find someone for me, he told me that on my dream....I decided when i go back there in Quezon that, I will move on with my life close this book of my life and open a new one, and if i close this book. i want to end it with a happy ending.. so i did, i go back to my in laws and let them know that im okay, that i didnt hold any grudge to them that i forgive them. and everything is okay. I hug them, and talk to them like nothing happens. I feel good about it. and its like i can see Heavenly Father Thumbs up on me. and thats the end of the story end of my book with my late husband. and i said to myself. So i open a new one. and i met this man. who help me open the new book of my life as a very exciting introduction to my new book. We meet only in a website where you can find a lot of singles in the LDS church...Its amazing how it happens. and He is the perfect man i am asking from God, The man doesnt even know that i ask God for someone like him. and in my prayer im smiling talking to God, saying..there you go again, you always want me to follow you without asking why, and without any idea whos this guy is. but i have this strong feeling that he is the man he prepared for me, That still small voice, stop wh ispering to me about this man when i met him. and its hard to explain, I think i can borrow the words that Adam and Nephi said, I know not save the Lord commanded me. and now where planing to get married on the 21st of March..if God wants this thing to happen in my life, everything will be fine. but if not He will do something to stop me. like He always do with my life. I never be the one who control my life. even i beg and ask God that let me do things that i want. if its not right for me, He never let it happen even i ask 3 times or more. Sometimes i am complaining "i said i thought we have free agency?" But you know even i want to do things that i want in my own way, im not that brave to argue with Father in Heaven and im not that brave to do what i want without his permission, coz my life is not me anymore, its about my kids, my family, and if i chose the wrong path or do the things i want without His permission I will mess up my life and i dont want that to happen because i know it will affect my childrens children. from generation to generation...and thats my life. Im looking forward this time whats   gonna happen next . What ever it is. Its a part of Heavenly Fathers plan for me, and He knows what is best for me. so I will use my Mission Presidents words to me, when i was so worried with our invistigator....".Let the Lord make the case"Im not gonna end my story here coz i know someday im going to write again......

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