Well life is going fairly okay right now. I’m not saying that the problems still aren’t there – I’m not saying that the problems have gone away or even eased off but I have a fresh perspective at the moment.

I learned a lesson a few weeks ago. As you’ve probably gathered I’ve rabbited on and on about the breakdown in the relationship that I have with my bishop. Well I got really rather annoyed once more with everything that had happened. And no I still don’t feel that I’ve received any support from the church throughout all this but that’s by the by in many respects.

I had cause to re-read some journals and even some blog entries here and I realised that although in that moment of time, those few days or weeks when I was getting annoyed with things, I’d become completely blind to the times when Bishop has been great, when he has been supportive and when I have recognised how close to the Spirit he is.

What it has also made me realise though is how quick we are to forget. How quick each of us is to forget who we are, why we are and where we are.

Half of the cause of my anger was disappointment I suppose. But then is that maybe the same with us? We do something wrong, and so we distance ourselves from our Heavenly Father, we distance ourselves from the influence of the Holy Ghost. And then because we no longer feel that same ‘warm feeling’ anymore, because we no longer experience Heavenly Father as acutely, we forget Him and we get angry with His distance. I guess too it’s easy to read all that from Church magazines and in Conferences etc. I suppose I’ve often dismissed or not acknowledged things I’ve read, hopefully now though I will have learned a lesson, through experience.

A x

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