Yesterday I went to a rehearsal for my son's talent show and I met another mom who has a 9 day old baby girl. We chatted for a while and she told me that between her two-year-old and her baby girl, she lost one at 20 weeks due to a rare infection in the placenta. The doctors said there was no way this would happen to her again - it was just too rare. Then her daughter was born 3 weeks early because it did happen again, but thankfully it happened when she was out of the danger zone.
There is rarely a moment I'm not grateful for my three healthy boys and that my baby girl due in three months is doing great. I'm not anymore deserving of a healthy baby than anyone else and know that a tragedy could just as easily happen to me. Life is so fragile. It breaks my heart to meet people who have had such a terrible loss.
Today I am sorting through the baby girl clothes a friend gave to me - I'm trying to stay on top of that because I have had a few women offer some. It's fun to imagine what she will look like in each outfit. It's going to be so different having a baby that wears dresses, tights, headbands, and those little undies that match the dresses! I already bought her a 4th of July dress for next year thinking how cute it would be to take a photo of her and her brothers - them in their patriotic t-shirts and the fun contrast of her in her dress at 10 months old.
A week after my miscarriage a year ago November, we had our Super Tuesday enrichment where one sister taught us how to make these sweet little baby bracelets. I made two with pink gems and one with a light purple. I decided to give the pink ones to my two nieces and was trying to decide who the purple one would go to. I came home and showed them to my husband, telling him the purple one was going to be for our future baby girl, because I knew we would have one. He grinned at me and I put it away in a little keepsake box so I wouldn't lose it. Only three months until she gets to wear it! :D