Well, I didn't chicken out. Today was ward confrence. It felt good to be able to raise my hand in sustaining president Monson. I headed home not too long after sacrament, due to my wanting to go home and rest. I'm still not 100% well yet.
I did ask for and recieve a blessing. The bishopric was in meetings with people from the stake, so asking them was out. My hometeachers were nowhere to be found. I was about to give up when a family friend got the ward missionaries to help me. I felt very comforted as they gave the blessing. I feel a whole lot less scared now.